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2010-10-17T20:20:00.004+08:00

When u're gone

Do me favor. Just play this song while u're reading it. Its meant to be emo.. like real damn emo..
Cuz this post, is dedicated to someone real special to me.
She's not who u think she is...
She's real special.
Like damnnnn real..

Yeah.. its my life..
In my own words i guess

Have you ever loved someone so much, you'd give an arm for?
Not the expression, no, literally give an arm for?
When they know they're your heart
And you know you are their armor
And you will destroy anyone who would try to harm 'em

I just couldnt accept the fact. I guess this is what happen when karma turns right around and bites you.
Is it a human nature to appreciate things only when they're gone?
We tend to take things for granted eh?
The only things left for me is nothing, but only memories.
This is the time when it causes u to be damn down.. like real down..
The only time when u start isolating urself and ask urself question.
''have i done not enough?'' ''i tot i took good care of u'' ''i thought this, i thought that''
Damn man! If u're unhappy with me at the first place, then dont be with me!
Why would u wanna give me the temporary happiness and then disappear with all of it?
I thought u like my gentleness? I thought u like my touch?
I thought u like the way i hold u?
I know there's some bad point about me, but thats me! i curse, i swears, i got temper but thats me, YS.
That YS, yeah baby, YS's crazy.
YS made me, but tonight YS writes about baby.

Chorus:
And when im gone, just carry on ,dont mourn, rejoice,
Everytime you hear the sound of my voice,
Just know that,
Im looking down on you smiling,
And i didnt feel a thing,
So baby dont feel a pain,
Just smile back.

I freaking searched the whole car from seats to compartments, to under seats, to trunk and i cant find it.
Then i searched my house from 1st floor to 3rd floor also i cant find it!
I search my whole room like crazy..
I guess, i guess my pencil case is gone..
And im damn sad about it. I dont like changing stuffs that i feel good using.
Its a girlish pencil case but thats the damn thing. Its not bout which gender can use it, its bout how much it can content.
To me, its perfect.
Macam perfect sangat ah.. gitu gitu ah..
Sedih doh dia hilang. Kalo buku hilang bagui juga, tapi ni pencil case.
Insyallah, moga moga aku jumpa balik ah benda tu. Rindu siut..Rindu..
Seriously man, no other pencil case can replace it.
What can i say?
RIP pencil case.. Till death do us apart

2010-04-16T00:30:00.003+08:00

Stereotypes

It was during a certain course(dont wanna say which course for safety) when i heard a bunch of girls who's sitting in front of me talking bout some interesting stuff. They were talking in chinese when the lecturer was explaining .It distracted my concentration and i decided to revenge! How'd i revenge? Eavesdropping! How'd i eavesdrop? By dropping every 'if' in my sentences. For eg, Marcus will only go to singapore if his dad go. Just drop off the 'if' . K k, sorry! How'd i did it was by leaning my head on the table. Words start coming in my ears and brain starts translating. Just downloaded the translator from google.

Anyways, wat i heard was really interesting. It was right at the timing when i decided to eavesdrop.
X:'' Wow, u really gave it to him?''
A:'' Yeah. Y not?''
X:'' What about the guy from years ago?''
A:''Which wan? The one who lasted 4 years with me?''
X:''Yeah him. Who you gave it to first?''
A:''Oh. I first gave it to the guy who lasted 4 years with me. He didnt ask anything from me before. So i gave it to him during our 3rd year.''
X:''Wow. U give it to him de u still can give to the new guy?''
A:''Yeah. Y not. This is a reward to them''
X:''Seems like u really love them. Its a rare thing tat girls will do. Dont u think its not right?Its a treasure u know''
A:''No. U must know how to reward them. Then only they will treasure u forever. He has done lots of thing for me, and tats the only thing i can reward him with which i'll feel satisfied too.''
X:''Now tat the other guy was gone, did u regretted?''
A:''Not at all. Why should i? Its an appreciation for them. ''
X:''If it was me, i surely had regretted. Maybe its just a different personal thoughts.''

At the beginning i was convinced by A. Maybe its cuz i didnt really write everything she said down la. It was such a complicated story and i was in the middle of important class too. But anyways, i was first convinced by her saying tat the guy has gave us ervything we want, will try his best to give us everything. With her tone of saying tat, i was drowned to her thoughts even more. Conclusion is, she said everything in a very suitable tone just to convince me. Until i heard of X. Yes if it happens to me, i'll regret too u know. What are u talking about girl A? Are u out of ur mind. U can always reward him with other thing. But not ur treasure! I feel sorry for ur future husband man. Tat isnt very nice. Maybe u're just 18, still young and dangerous. But when u grew older, definitely u'll regret. Tats why they say blondes are dumb. You are indeed dumb.

Tat was my thoughts upon listening all of this la.
Then i continued eavesdropping further.

A:''Yeah its a different thinking perhaps. I tried asking some other fren. Some of them say they will, some say definitely not.''
X:''But how did u get the money?''

WHAT?! MONEY?! What u talking about? I then quickly switch on to eavesdrop 120%:paying attention -20%. I must have heard wrongly when i tried to multitask. At 2.5 secs interval, i almost tapped their shoulder asking them to rewind.

A:'' Its from my savings. Once, on my birthday, my dad gave me $1000.''
X:'' Wow! So sweet. U use tat money to buy?''
A:''Yeah. Luckily got discount. Worth it la actually.''

I dono how to continue any futher, but it was actually a Rolex watch she bought for her BF. At this point, i stereotyped again. I condemned X for being fucking kiam siap. And i took back wat i thought of A. U're indeed young and dangerous! Well, i guess everyone will say tat she's a sweet person. From tat point onwards, i started to look at her at a more postive perspective. I paid respect to her.

Well u see, today i had a maths class and our group did some question wrong cuz we assume we know wat that question wants. There's a term which confuses us, but we decided to take it to another meaning, which is actually the opposite of the real meaning. And we paid a high price for tat cuz the answer of tat question is important to the next question. Its a linked answer question, one wrong everything wrong.

Wat im trying to say is, what if i didnt know tat it was a watch? Then everytime i see her, i'll see a foolish girl. She'll never get a postive feedback from me no matter wat. I've learnt not to assume things which im not very clear off anymore.

Critical thinking lessons:
Here's a question for u. I stole this question from my coursemates. They were my besties now and they're totally random and retard. Same gang la ya. One of them questioned all of us. What if ur wife tell u she is not a virgin on the day before ur wedding? How will u react? All of us agree with each other tat we cannot accept the fact.

Now, we see it in the other way around. What makes u think we disagree? Its bcuz we're virgins and we wants equal rights. To my virgin readers, try asking urself this question. Im sure we'll come out with the same answer right? K, lets now see it in the other way around again. I've heard this question being questioned to some other ppl. And it seems like their answer was always this. ''I dont mind cuz tats the guys/girls past''. Based on my interpretation, the real answer is this. ''They dont mind cuz they're not virgins too. They are not qualified or they dont have the rights to judge others.''

Well, this is wat i meant by saying dont assume things tat we are not clear off. Juz cuz they mind, doesnt mean they're a virgins too. They might have different perspective. So if u posted this question to ur fren, dont judge them thru their answers. And another thing is tat, do u think its approriate for ppl to judge their partners thru virginity? Is virginity a very big question?
Ok Ok! Here comes my stereotype readers who think tat im a non virgin too cuz i asked this question. Tats y i said, dont assume things tat u are not clear off. The purpose of me asking this question is bcuz, it seems like during english class, my group keep taking up a topic which i always on the 'against side'. Like today, we stood up for gays.

Stereotypes ppl, i have met lots of them. Are u one?

2010-04-12T21:57:00.003+08:00

Seriously man, im getting very stressed up in college.
I need to spice some thing up man.
Like creating a band there.
But seriously, i dont think there's any1 who's not nerd enuff to play musical instruments man.
The only musical instrument tat they play is the Organ. Must be.
Why is the entertainment in school much better than in college?
Pls ppl, get more sporty and freaky a bit.
Be more crazyyyyyyy...
No music no life!
There's no way a person cant get smarter in college.
Being surrounded by god and goddess of knowledge.
Surprisingly, i heard some powerful words i used to say before.
'' C'mon, we're normal human beings. Who does homework man?''
I like tat phrase! Tats when im in Form 6 la.
Nabeh, how i wish i could say tat to the whole class too.
But i know, i cant say it anymore..
Instead, i had to be the one to get terasa by those words.
Its so unfair man. I had to do homework like crazy, study in advance to catch up with the subs.
But those ppl, they play a fool, yet they're damn smart.
Its so disappointing when those hardworking ppl are the one scratching head when the lecturer give a challenging question.
And its so insulting how those lazy ass are the one who're like'' C'mon la, so easy. Wat take u so long? This times this plus this get de la''
Wat can i say?
There's an obvious difference btwn the smart and the hardworking.
Smarties are always smart.
Hardworkers are normally stupid ppl striving for their best.
F it man. F it..
Be realistic YS. You are indeed a stupid person trying ur best to be smart.
Just shut up, be more hardworking, dont give up and get ur damn degree quick.
Ur bloody 24 when u finish degree. U can say u're still young, but some1 is getting older.

2010-04-01T01:51:00.003+08:00

Life's like that...

Four roads diverged in the woods.. And sorry i could not travel all..
Instead, i gotta travel the 6th road.
So if u're wondering wat will i be pursuing in my degree...
It will be...
Finance and accounts.
Wat?! wat happen to ur engineering?
I tot u want mechatronic, mechnical, electronic engineering? Sound engineering also no prob i thought? tats wat ppl usually tease me.
Then to cover my ego.. I'll tell them..
Oh oh.. I havent say finish ma..
Its actually financial and accounting engineering.
So instead of Mitsubishi motoring, now Matabushi financing la?
It kinda disappoint me when i go onto facebook and seeing disappointing stuff from ppl who i expect them to stick to their ambition.
And even disappoint me when they're the ones who did well in STPM.
I dont feel fair for them. Studying and working so hard for STPM and in the end, even with their results, they're not confident of getting wat they want.
From engineering to business field.
From medicine to cleaning fish tanks..
From science to arts.
Or even if stick to engineering, get some funny funny engineering.
Like financial and accounting engineering. Dude.. i dono wat to say man..

Here's something very contradicting bout me.
Ever since i finish my SPM, my sis has been advicing me to do accounting.
And tat was the day i condemned accounts.
I'll never take accounts man! I'LL NEVER!!!
And now? Im like..''to hell with accounts''
''tonight we dine in accounts!''
''an accounts a day keeps money from flowing away''
''accounts is power''
''accounts potienta est''
Honestly man, the first thing i do after coming back from college, is accounts!
Not tat im forced to do it. BUT!!
Im interested in it!
College starts at 10.30 today but i always reach there before 7.30 cuz my bro college starts at 8.
And u know wat im doing while waiting in the car for the library to open?
Taking out accounts notes and textbook to do.
The lecturer are still in introduction stage, and i already done the exercises in textbook already.
I have some of them calling me a nerd.
Man, i hope they were same class with me in form 6.
Then they'll know how nerd am i.
In other words, im doing fine okay ppl!
Dont worry bout me! I know wat u'll be thinking..
I can sense HJ and WL shooting me again..
''Aiya now beginning only ma. Sure semangat la. After 2 months, same like in form 6 only la.. Sure sleep wan la..''
U'LL WAIT AND SEE HJ!! U WAIT TOO LOONG!!
Bloody helll!!! Im having internal conflict again.. SHUT UP U 2!!!
Cant u just believe in me once?!! ARGGHHHHHHHHH!!!!

2010-03-22T22:07:00.003+08:00

Hell

Class started today, but hell is not bout college.. It is about.. ulcers!
I've just applied some watermelon paste to my 1st ulcer, which is the minor, less pain wan.
And guess wat.. Its awful. It strikes my brain like crazy..
Now, im calming myself down.
Cuz im about to apply it on the major ulcer, my 2nd ulcer.
Tats where hell begins..
Im starting to imagine if i have some anesthetic drug.
I would like be feelingless for around 5 mins.
Oh god.. pls bless this young child.
Seriously, i feel like crying now.
I dont wanna bare the pain.
Even my gum can feel it.....
Im such a pussy i know. sighhhhhh....
Ok.. here we go. Im gonna publish this post and start applying chemistry, bio and physics to life now.
Man... all the best YS

2010-03-21T21:37:00.003+08:00

Ulcers

I think tat frequently visits my mouth are not just sweets, chocolates, lips, tongue but also ulcers.
Mother, it hurts like hell..
Ever since im standard 3, it visits me very frequently already.
U know, ur saliva keep wanna drool down u know? Its just so painful!
Oh yeah, when i tell most of the ppl tat i got ulcers, they'll say exactly the same thing.
Dont kiss so much la..
Hello... When i standard 3 tat time, got nothing to kiss k..
I've tried many oral base ulcers.
From watermelon paste, to bonjela, to dono wat sticky sticky thing..
And none of the above are non-pain.
Everything also pain!
And u know how pain it is or not?
The pain will first begin in ur mouth, as if like soemthing sharp is poking ur ulcer repeatly.
The pain will then travel straight up to ur brain using KTM. Then, tears will come down.
And i'll wanna scream for the whole pain session.
'' aughhhhhhhh!!! MCB!!! argghhhhhhhh!!! F ur grandfather!!! uuuwaaaahhhhhh!!!! fuhh..fuh...fuhh...uncle Fker rarrrhhhhhh!!!!''
MCH, when wanna put tat time, i'll tremble terribly..
I'll be like will it be tat pain again?
Will my tears drop again?
I'll take about 10 secs to calm myself down and 3 secs to plan wat bad words to scream.
Pls forgive me...
Its so pain...
So pls, love me more each and everyday ok?

2010-03-18T22:07:00.002+08:00

So today was the beginning of a new era, for me.
My class was about 130+ students i think.
I dont know wat kind of coursemate i'll have, but 1 thing im sure. They dont look like F5ers.
They look like grown up ppl. Got la, some still with the baby face, but most.. Matured already.
Okla, at least i dont have to feel so old there.. phewww..
So today there's this personality profiling.
Its a set of quiz to see wat category u fall in.
It falls under 4 category actually..
And i'll summarize ervything my way.
1.Dominance - U're the boss. U take risk. Ppl godlike u make them doglike. U're the challenger! U're the controller! U like to be on top, even on the bed.'' Say my name..say my name!!!'' ''ahh..YS..ahhh..''
2.Influencial- U're the persuader. U love to interact, u love the crowd.
3.Steadiness- U're stable, u're the supporter. Ppl ask u say yes, u say yes. Wat also ok.
4.Compliance-U're very cautious, very analytical! U hate risk. U calculate the risk first. In my words, u're smart, you're strategist. You're justice!

From the way i classify things also u know which category i fall in de la right?
Yes im under category 3 and 4.
Well, the lecturer seems to classify those 4 classes very equally. She's good with words. Very unhurtful.
But i know wats the truth. the truth is, ppl under my category are more to like.. servants.
We cannot be the head of something. We just love following ppl. We never liked to command ppl. We're too soft. If we run a company, within 2years? no, 2 months? no.. 2 weeks? no.. 2 seconds, just 2 seconds the company will fall apart.
So to those who are willing to spend ur life with me and call me hubby for the rest of ur life, just be informed tat you're considering a husband who is a kuli, servant. A husband who will never be tau keh. If u see in depth, tat means not so high income. If u see more deep, tat means less shopping, not so big home probably a semi C, maybe a toyota, proton, perodua and will never be mercedes, BMW, no LV, no Gucci, no Prada, no Levis. Just PDI, hush pup, topman, lowman, forever 21, TaTaLi and those stuff la ya.

Well.. at least for the rest of my life i'll know tat my wife will be some1 who loves me more than my assets. Not tau keh nvm, at least at home u're the big boss. Not branded nvm, at least u know tat ur wife is made in heaven.
My concept of earning money, is earn my own money. It means, i like earning money and at the same time i could help ppl. Not treating ppl like kuli, not squeeze every blood out of them to make money, not scolding ppl to increase productivity, not scandaling with worker to give them a promotion. So wat if i couldnt make huge money? But at least i can bring huge happiness to ppl around me.
I dont mind earning a little less money if i could please ppl.
But i absolutely cannot accept the concept of '' Aiya they wan say wat let them say la? I got 50k can de la!''

2010-03-17T21:45:00.002+08:00

College's starting tomoro..
I sound like those F5-ers after SPM right? Sighhh...
Honestly, im excited and at the same time unhappy..
Excited cuz i get to study again and in a new environment.
Excited cuz i wanna i wanna i wanna finish foundation fast and pursue my degree fast.
I've wasted 2 years and more.
Unhappy cuz i got to start-all-over-again.
Unhappy cuz ppl will call me ah beng..For dying my hair...Oh u dont know i dyed my hair do you? I mean my natural white hair.

Well, have u thought of wat will happen to me when i start my class?
Being 2 years ahead of most of the students in the programme..
How will i introduce myself to the class..
And i like sticking to frens, but wei loong is not gonna be there anymore..
Have to make frens again..
And i hate being unfamiliar to a place..
Where's the library? Will i get lost on my way to class and late for class? Will i enter the wrong toilet? Will i get stuck in lif? And being some1 who hates to ask for directions, will i take extra 10 mins to reach my destination?
Maybe some of u wanna ask me, why am i worried about this kind of things more than studies ah? (cuz u all know i mmg stupid in studies wan)
Like can i cope with the subject, can i absorb the lecturers notes? Will i sleep in class?
Nahhh.. Tats not gonna happen dude. Tats not gonna happen!!

KNNCCB!
Dont think i dono wat u ppl are thinking k! Han jien, u think i dono wat u thinking ah? Loong, watch out know u! I say i wont means i wont laaaaaaa!!!
(seriously im having internal conflict with myself. I can just imagine HJ keep shooting and shooting me, sperm smell all over..)
Go awayyyy.. HJ WL go awayyyyyy.... arghhhhhhhhhhh!! I headache de. I think i cant go college de tomoro.
See, havent start college i find excuses to ponteng de...
Just joking la ya.
Anyways, thanks to all of u who have wished me for my future.
Will bring u news from college after this.
Stay tuned!

2010-03-16T14:14:00.005+08:00

Gender Discrimination

Facts that i've seen in my life, some even experienced before.
If a women helps a young boy to change shirt, no problem. Sweet, helpful, motherly, lovely.
If a men helps a young girl to change, big problem! Pervert, animal, beast! all those shit.
Just like some tadika, they dont allow nor prefer guys to be a teacher.
Most kids in tadika are at a very young age, bout 1,2,3,4, uno dos tres cuatro! I know you want me, u know i want cha..
Kk, back to the point. So u know la, kids this young, some dont know how to go toilet and pee.
So this lovely,helpful,motherly ladies will escort them to the toilet, and help them pee.
Girls, wont be a problem. But guys...Some like to move from left to right when they pee u know, they wanna be future gardener. Some dont know how to pee! Ask a tadika teacher!*cough pei ling*
So these ladies must hold their 'water can' in order not to pollute mother toilet.

Now lets reverse this situation, if a guy were to help a young girl in toilet, most of them will consider it a rape, child abuse, child molesting and all. All those negative thoughts will come in.
Helloooo... So u think only girls private parts are valuable la is it? Guys private part all watering cans only la zit? Just cuz some guys are terrible, so all guys are considered terrible la is it?
Its already 2010, not 1020 k. Stop being a kampung freak and grow up. Open ur minddd..
We guys too wanna be fatherly, to prove to the society we're able to take care of our daughters and sons.

Not just one situation, many more..
In my cousins place, i had seen this situation.
A sister accidentaly opened the door while her brother is naked and changing. Brother complain to parents, parents selamba je..
Mom: Aiya sister see u only ma, own sister wat. Nvm la.
Sister: Yeah la, i told u i not purposely wan right? How i know he was changing?
Brother: Dont lie! I told u de right im bathing?
Sister: I was watching tv and didnt pay attention la. I didnt hear brother said he gonna bath also.
Mother: Yeah la, sister accidentaly only la, forgive her la k. Last time u small small the time ur maid always help u bath. bla..bla..bla..
But if a brother accidentaly opened the door while his sister is naked and changing, this is when world war 4 starts.
Mom: Ah chai, wat kind of brother are u? Own sister also wanna see?
Ah chai: MA!! i told u de i accidentaly wan right? How i know she was changing?
Sister: Dont lie! I told u de right i was bathing?
Ah chai: I was playing computer and didnt play attention la! I didnt hear also sister said she was bathing!
Mother: Give excuses number 1. Study, number 1 from last. bla..bla..bla...

U tell me la, how many of u, as a brothers are a victim of this?
And how many of u, as sisters, knows for a fact tat your bro really accidentaly, yet u're angry of him?

And how many of u guys there are playing a role as a bf and u've encountered so many complications and unfairness. U feel like there's no justice in this world anymore.
When u bring ur gf go shopping, she buy bra and panties, u gotta wait outside.
La senza, Xiao Xiao Li(XiXiLi) are examples of those. If u go outside, cham liau. Start la, ppl will say u pervert la, take advantage see other girls la, curi touch bra and panties la, all those crap la.
But when u wanna buy boxers or underwears, gf come along with u, ho liau! ''She very sweet la can help bf buy underwear, boxers.The bf useless! cant even decide own's underwear. Guys are so non-independent!'' The gf can sometimes open the underwear to check whether its in good condition of not before purchasing! If u check their panties and bra, security come..

If a wife helps her husband to wash his underwear, and if neighbour were to notice, the wife gets a praise and then husband gets a comments. ''Wat kind of husband is this, make wife wash underwear. So non-independent!''
But if husband help his wife wash underwear, and if neighbour were to notice. This is wat happen.
*neighbour take out his cellphone*
Neighbour: Hello, ini polis ah? Gua sini taman mewah ada satu hamsap punya olang, tgh curi itu pelempuan punya spendet. Itu spendet tengah basuh punya pun dia mau curi. Sudah hang punya dia tamau, dia mau itu tgh basuh punya. Mali tangkap ah.

2010-03-15T00:02:00.003+08:00

Words of wisdom

Have u ever encountered a time when u came across a word.
A word tat is meant to be other meaning.
Like ''u hensem la'', which you know actually it would mean to be like '' u macam nenek saya''
Or maybe ''I think first la..'' which you know would mean to be a ''no!''
SOmetimes, '' shit, i forgot my wallet'' which actually mean like ''i dont think im paying for my stuff, and im gonna make u pay for it''
But today, i encountered a word which has no negative meaning.
In fact, it holds up to more than just a meaning of tat word itself.
And tat word is underlined...

Let me interpret some stuff for u all.
College is starting real soon..
And this is wat my mum want to tell me..
She doesnt know english well, so she use a combination of hokkien, english and malay.
But we all know wat she does actually wanted to tell me from tat underlined word itself.
And if u open the angpau, u'll understand even more.
RM200 is inside, instead of RM100.
U get it?
if you dont, look this way.
RM200% is inside instead of RM100%.
Mum, u r indeed my mak mak.
Despise not knowing malay well, u still try writing something.
Thank you mak mak!

2010-03-08T15:01:00.004+08:00

Some ppl just...

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(I know wat some of u are thinking, how nice if click to enlarge ur didi is it?)

When we become consumer, we think of nothing but for our benefits only. We want highest quality but cheapest price.Ppl put high high price we scold, say no brains. Can ask sumore who's mother gonna buy? so expensive!
When we become the seller, ppl want cheap price, we scold. Hello! Wan cheap stuffs go 99 market buy la pan! How u expect me to sell a gold worth 9000 for a price of a junk worth 99cents?

It almost applies for everything..
Whether its buying laptop, wallet, gears, cars, houses,dogs,cats,puppies to wateva it is..
We wan big houses! Got garden got swimming pool, some even waterfall! But want price fall also.
If we're the seller, we wan sell super expensive! Squeeze every penny out of you! Give reasons like strategic location, quality bricks, expensive manpower.

Some ppl just never think for others.
Try to be in some1 shoes before u voice out something.
U know a buyer wants a reasonable price, then u lower the price a bit la.
Or even seller..They have their limits on lowering down prices. Dun push against their limits la.
U want something good, but u dont wanna give efforts to it?
Right or not Aaron Lee? Before u become seller, u sure like'' wah lau damn expensive dey''
Now u seller, u sure like '' Mother you, 500 give u 450 enuff la. Want to lower till 200 sumore? Just take it and go la..Go..Take it.. and..go...''
Wats worst is this..
''This house, 500k. Doubley storey. Good location. But sewage system got problem. If raining, water also will come in, tats y we charge u 500k cuz we give u pail. Big pail. Plus trolley so tat u easy to move the pail.''
Wats the role of the house?
To provide u a comfortable and a warm place to live. Wats this house to u?
I've met a seller this worse.. PPl nowayds...

2010-03-08T12:31:00.002+08:00

Honestly, i was afraid to face my frens..
I even wanna try to avoid them..
I feel its really shameful..
But right now, im afraid to lose them!
When i have trouble, each of came and support me.
So pai seh sia!!
But honestly, thank you ppl!
In return, i'll be succesful and treat u all a big one!
Dont worry, i wont forget.
Cuz there'll be lots tat will remind me.
Remind me to be succesful, keep pushing me!
So tat i can be succesful, and they can have free food!
2 goals, with 1 ball.

2010-03-01T01:27:00.004+08:00

Today, allow me to be han jien. If u dont know him, he's famous for being straight forward, a sharp shooter. His words are powerful, true, meaningful, and wonderful. K lets begin.

And do u ever wanna know how do a failure in STPM proceed in life? stay tuned!

Students/children.
Some are smart. They work less, play more, results are above average. Gifted, talented, wonderful, amazing. Example, Ng Wei Loong. (Some1 who would caress himself and the person sitting next to him, big annoyance in class according to some classmates but for some he is entertaining, some1 who will say he wanna do homework but never did, some1 who would promise a scary girl tat he will complete a task but never did, some1 who would sleep from 6am to 6pm then take dinner and sleep back to 6am again, some1 who did last minute work. Best thing, 3.25 in STPM and we all know tat STPM is hell)

Some are hardworking. They work more than they play. Results are pure efforts. In the end, god bless them with what they deserve. Example, uhmm..too much.. like my bro perhaps.

Some are stupid. They work less, play too much. Results are pure crap. God punish them. Waste effort, waste time, waste money.

Some are not talented. They work hard, play too less. Work and work and work, study very hard, results, not very satisfying. Didnt get wat they expected. Waste effort, waste time yet waste money. No difference from the ppl under stupid category. Torture themself by studying 24/7 plus no entertainment yet crap kind of results. Stupid, pure stupid. At least ppl under stupid category get to entertain themself.

But the stupidiest of all person, is a person who knows wat will happen, and yet ignore it. They realize something bad is coming yet there's an oppurtunity to overcome it, but they ignore everything. He know stpm is tough, he know he is lazy, he keep say he will study but never really did, tot himself very smart dont take tuition all, and when results come out, B F F C. Even better, can paktohlogy sumore. Sounds familiar? Tats me!

But this stupid person, has a story to tell.
After getting the results, i went home and sort of told my mum about my results. My mum expected it, and she stop doing her work and talked to me in dining table. She confessed to me tat she knew this will happen. To normal parents, they would just let their children start working, let them suffer cuz dowan study, let them taste bitterness cuz tats wat they deserve. But to some parents with unconditional love(this are parents tat most parents will say they are stupid), this is not the end. My mum had a plan for me. She is willing to put a sum of 10-20k to a risk. She said this money will be the last money she'll throw for my studies. If i fail again, even unconditional love cant help anymore.

Then i went straight to INTI college to ask about evrything and decided to stay there cuz my bro is in taylor. Inti and taylor are neighbours. Im taking foundation in business. Then my frens suggested me to check out on sunway college as they are very well known for business studies. And for the same foundation, sunway college is much cheaper, so i decided to go sunway then. Mum approved.

I came from a not so good earning family. My family runs a god's busines.. We're holy ppl. How much income do u expect from a 60+ years old reaching 70 old man can earn from running a tiny business? With no manpower to help, he alone manage his shop from 6am to 1pm, go back to his shophouse afterwards and start sending stuff to other customers. Not to mention, papers and sticks are very heavy when they're packed. Work so hard, yet so low incomes. My dad always tell my mum to make sure when we grown up, we do jobs tat are not suffering like his. He does not want his son to follow his footsteps, but his 2nd son are tailing him.

Do u know how much it means when my mum is willing to put 20k to a risk? For a women who never had a fun life after marrying to my dad. Before marry, my mom can enjoy her life, after marry she had to work like mad cow. Until now, u can see her non stop doing her 'ong-lai' from 8am to 9pm. And each ong lai only earns less than RM2 per biji. To risk a sum of Rm20k just by selling her ong lai is like risking her 10 years of life making them. Do u know how much tat means to her? and to me?

And to u ppl of ages who doesnt understand her, here's a msg for u.When i told u my mum is sending me to start a new life in college, u all say she stupid. Son stupid, mother also stupid. The furthest place she had gone for holiday is teluk intan. The furthest place u ppl had gone for holidays are miles away. U ppl go to holiday every possible public holiday. Do u know wat does public holiday means to my mum? It means opportunity to earn money. Stay at home, do more ong lai! I had to argue and cry to go for holiday with rm 400. U ppl spend rm400 like nothing. Sap sap water la is it?

U ppl can spend on holiday, airport tickets, 6stars hotel room, massage, spa, wateva crap, but u ppl cant spend a sum of money for ur son? Kononnya so tat ur son will learn a lesson in life how important studies is? I dont think tats the correct way. The correct way is to give them a last chance. Bcuz human have feelings. They can change. Remember, when ur son become succesful, eventually u become succesful. Their success is your success. Their failures means more on to you. Just like teachers who feel much more sad than their students when their students did badly in an exam. The one to blame are the students, but yet the teachers are the one who suffers more. As quoted by Pn.Rabiah.

I dont mind being called stupid, but not my mum. If she's stupid, then ur mum is purely retard. This post is just to clear things up for my mum. My mum doesnt know wat is happening, but i know. She doesnt deserve to be called stupid..

Mum, i will get a dual degree and prove to them who is stupid. This is between u and me okay! Do u remember when u whispered to me as i was sleeping of tiredness after coming back from college? When u wiped away my sweat cuz i didnt on the fan, you whispered '' ah boy, dont so sad okay. Mum will let u go college no matter wat.'' I actually heard it, but i pretended not to. Cuz i dont wanna cry in front of u. When i get rich, i'll buy u a massage chair, buy u a good house so u dont have to do ong lai anymore. I'll make ur 20k worth the risk! Thank you mum!

2010-02-23T15:12:00.002+08:00

Listen, im a normal guy. Pure normal guy.
I like girls, i do porno,love pussy but unfortunately i only get to fuck myself just like normal guy do. I swears, i curse, i have mood.
I have emotion, i can feel angry, super angry, hyper angry, super horny, sad, happy and all, pure normal.
Im a typical asian who loves japanese food called sushi and not japanese girls pussies.
I hate kim gary's. Sizzling yee mee is the best.
I go for tasty food not BRANDED shit. Loh yee mee, normal noodle soup is much better than your mtoherkingfcuk spagetti with red shit.
I'm asian, always asian and proud to be asian.
My sepet eyes proves it. Not happy? Fuck u ''lah''. United Lah stand, divided Lah fall.

It's just a 'let my anger out post'. Dont get offended. If u do, im not sorry. Cuz ur so stupid..

2010-02-11T21:51:00.002+08:00

As i was walking from downstairs to upstairs, i saw a customer came in. Then i overheard she told my dad, is tat your son? he's so tall, so grown up already.

I was just thinking.. Have i really grown up? It feels like im the same as i am when im form 4 or 5. So grown up? But not helping my parents.. wats the use? I guess tat will be wat my dad thinking. Sighhh... I wish i could be helpful..
U know when some ppl grow up, they really grow up...
As in, they become more hairier..
More big sized.. maybe not their private parts..
Developed a beat box inside their throat, which will make them sound cool..
More men looking, instead of looking like small kid or pussies..
Think four times before they do something.. Not everybody does tat tho, not even for some who are soon to be father, a father or some grand ppl.. as in, grandfather...

Im already in my 20.. and i still remember when im 17.. it really feels like 17 u get wat i mean?
But right now, i dont even feel like 20.. i feel like im 16.. i dont see me growing up. Not a man yet.
Same goes for my fren. No offense ppl, but i have a bunch of frens. And when i see them, in my mind, they are still small, they are still like 17.. It's still like those days u know.. Even if they drive cars already, smokes, do drugs, or even wear formal, they still look like them when they are 17. Why, why is this so? Is it bcuz we hang around with each other too much tat we dont realize the changes tat occurs? Or is it we're still small? Or maybe some other reason?
Well, wat i know is, im still 17..
Still a pussy, still a boy, still scratching 'hairy' parts cuz im experiencing growth..
Im still using still.. sighhhhhhhhhhhhhh

2010-01-29T19:40:00.001+08:00

2010-01-25T19:34:00.002+08:00

Beauty Fool...

Lately I've been hard to reach
I've been too long on my own(and some1)
Everyone has a private world
Where they can be not alone
Are you calling me, are you trying to get through
Are you reaching out for me, and I'm reaching out for you

I'm just so damn depressed
I just cant seem to get a job
If I could just charm using my hump
But I need something to pull me out this dump
I took some searching , took my lumps
Fell down and I got right back up
But I need that spark to get psyched back up
And the right thing for me to pick that interview back up
I don't know how I pry away
And I ended up in this position I'm in
I starting to feel useless again
So I decided just to beat this pain

But don't let them say you ain't beauty fool
They can all get fucked. Just stay true to you,YS.
SO, dont let 'em say you ain't beautiful.
They can all get fucked up. Just stay true to you.

I think I'm starting to lose my sense of humor
Everything is so tense and gloom
I almost feel like I gotta check the people around the room
Just as soon as I walk in
It's like all eyes on me WOAH
So I try to avoid any eye contact
Cause if I do that then it opens a door to conversation
Like I want that...
I'm not looking for extra attention
I just want to have a job like you
Blend in with the rest of the room
Maybe just point me to the closest restroom
I don't need fucking man servin'
Tryin to follow me around, and wipe my ass
Laugh at every single joke I crack
And half of them ain't even funny like that
Ahh YS, you're so funny man,
you should be a comedian, GOD DAMN!
Unfortunately I am, but I just hide behind the tears of Nabil
So why don't you all sit down
Listen to the tale I'm about to tell
NOTE: EDITED FROM THE SONG BEAUTIFUL-EMINEM

I hate finding a job. Too much bias ppl. Some just wan pussies to work for them so they can flirt around. Some just wan cool guy to work with them so they can feel more cool instead of being beauty fool. Some just...

2009-12-14T02:08:00.003+08:00

Holiday Trip

Yo ppl, bringing u news from historical town, Malacca.

Well, basically, the starting of the journey was very exciting... Cuz i got lost in KL but finally being directed back to Malacca highway. Pheww... Hell..

K so the journey to malacca takes about 1hour 40 mins. Kinda tired to drive so far. Those who participates on the journey are me, baby, baby's sis and her sis 2 other fren. Drive 2 car there cuz kinda pack. First thing we do there is to check in the hotel. Here's me and baby in the lobby taking pics. xD

Great hotel, great place, great food, great everything, except money flowing very fast.. Tsunami also lose man. Eat and eat and eat, buy and buy and buy.. Teeth pain gila man. Went eating chicken rice ball, jonker street, back to hotel rest, satay celup, jonker street, lepak in town, back to hotel, and blog. Aduh.. tiring gila wei.. STPM over ni straight enjoy kau kau de ar? hahaha.

Oh no worries anyways. DEfinetely we'll sleep on the same bed, sharing the same comforter and doing wat we do best. The night is ours. YEAH RIGHT. DREAM ON LA YS. The truth is, sleep on the floor alone with jumper on and withstand the cold. YS YS... T_T

kla.. goodnight peeps. im gonna sleep now. tomoro brand new journey. See ya!

Good night baby, sweet dreams! Wish you would curi curi come hug me when im sleeping alone >.<. Hee.

2009-12-06T23:33:00.007+08:00

ASK YS.

1. IF u were given a chance to date a superstar, who will u date?
The countryside girl. The girl who sang you belong with me.

2.Will u be serious with her or are u just giving her a chance to try u?
Definetely not serious. Why would i wanna be serious with her? She's a superstar. I'll just let her experience how does it feels like to date a non-superstar. Let her experience asians method of dating. More importantly, let her have a chance to date a criminal.

3.Why of all stars u choose to date that star.
Well.. basically, it happens on a night, new year eve night. I was following my fren to celebrate new year eve you see. In the car, for the first time i heard tat song on the radio. Tat song tat started with ''we're both young when i first saw u, i close my eyes and the flashback starts im standing there, on the balcony in summer air. See the lights see the party the ball gown, see you make your way thru the crowd and say hello, little did i know''. Tat song got stuck in my head for the entire celebration. It was such a great night. At the end of the celebration, all tats left with me is the memories, and tats when i close my eyes and the flashback starts im standing there, like a kayu in the air. See the movie see the club see you in those lovely gown, see you make your way thru the crowd holding me and say hello, alot things did i know. Tat u were juliet u were insecure like pebbles and your sister said stay away from those drunkyards, i was crying on the staircase when we gotta go, and i said . Baby pls take me to somewhere we can be alone, i'll be waiting all we have to do is run, i'll be your prince and you'll be my princess, its more than a love story baby just say yes. Simplified the story enough rite?

4. Seeing tat you're not serious with the stars, how are u gonna break off from her?
Well, i wont make the few seconds phone calls like jonas's did. I'll meet her and tell her face to face. ''Taylor, u're amazing. But im sure u can find some1 who deserved u better than me. Cuz i have some1 more important waiting for me. She's not as popular as u, but her content is more than those love songs u wrote.U wrote song for ppl to listen. She's the song im listening to..Good luck Taylor ''

2009-12-01T21:01:00.002+08:00

MATHS 2

Today we had our maths 2 paper. Its a blessing seriously.. When i checked the first question.. i was like..

''1. sin^3X sec X = 2 tanX''

(Dude wats the sin^3X doing there? no such formula related also)
(hmmm...)
(should i like change the tanX to sinX/cosX?)
(oh i saw something! sin^3X sec X = 2 tan X . uh la la~)
( Tan Sec Sin. Tan Hong Min brother.)

Seriously, i never felt so dumb before. *cough*.
I just couldnt believe it when i heard some ppl said its hella easy. And its not a brag. Tat person really meant it. Man... But seriously, STPM's not something to fool with. Remember, u dont have semesters exam for STPM. You dont pay shit for STPM. You dont have semesters break. You dont abandon the first few first chapters after a sem exam. YOU DONT! You study everything, remember every shit, apply every crap and poof.. 4.0? 2.67? 1/2.435? U decide.

2009-11-30T21:44:00.003+08:00

YO ppl, i've decided to come back to blogging. Why? I dont know.. DAmnit..

Exams been a crap. I screwed up physics paper 2.It was 2.30 hour. Can u imagine... Just when i was opening the first page, and i go to the question '' .....find the Coefficient Friction of...'' i was like.. WTCF?? My forehead's becoming more and more big. For the 2.30 hours, i spent 3 hours knocking my forehead. Extra 30mins is from after finish examination and i found out my formula was wrong.

Ei... wat im gonna do? i screwed up almos everything.. But actually, i screwed up since the very first day i enter form 6. Man, im a screwer. Tats why mechanical engineering suits the the most. WOnder wat kind of uni will i get into...

oh yeah.. my mom. She really, really screwed me up. I was in the midst of revising for maths 2. Discrete probabilities. SHe came in the room with a pen and paper. Great, i tot she wanna learn how to calculate probabilities too. And i started feeling so stressed up when she actually asked me to write down something for her. I've never in my whole life, find such beautiful determination. K this is wat happen..

My mom.. she... asked me to write...
TOMORROW 1/12/09 I'M DETERMINED TO DIET
''...''
''.....'
''...''
''.........''
FOR ONLY FOUR DAYS.

ONLY FOUR DAYS?!I... i.. i give up. Im so screwed. I cant believe i write it for her. It was like a black magic. So instantaneous so spontaneous. Its too fast..

2009-11-18T19:37:00.003+08:00

LOST CHILD

I just found out tat this poor lil child is missing since some time ago.
They cant identify the gender of this poor child.
If u happen to meet this child, pls keep this child.
Dont have to report. The child's parent decided to reward the founder by giving away this child.
Its a blessing. Good luck finding this child. =/

note: an intended joke. very offensive.. sorry ya.

2009-11-17T17:03:00.002+08:00

Spastic or hectic?

''Excuse me sir, can i have a few minutes? Dont worry im not a bad guy. Here, we're volunteers from spastic children.....''

MCD, kena..
KFC pun kena..
Stall restaurant, also kena...
Nabeh, everytime wanna eat also sure kena wan...

The thing about me is... Im SOFT.. too soft tat i hate myself.. this is wat happen

The first time
YS was out with XX to grab a lunch..then a man came and interferred us. Spastic Man= SM

SM: '' good day sir!''
YS: ''good day good day''
SM:'' dont worry, im not a bad guy. Im a volunteers to help spastic children raise funds. Spastic children are special cased children(blah blah blah). Would you mind donating rm10 for this children.
YS:*good day my ass* oh yeah sure..
XX:*whispers*... rm10.. u serious?
YS:*whispers* just once.. i dono how to reject...*take out rm 10* here you go.
SM: thank you for helping a children..have a nice day..
so we just continue eating after kena con..

The second time:
While eating again, we saw some SM ppl asking for donation
YS: i dont care wat, im gonna tell him off even before he starts his conversation
XX: ok..
SM: Hi good evening, we're from kjdnsahjbdnasdshadsnadsadsadsad....
YS: (crap! i just cant tell him off)
SM: so sir, would u like to donate?
XX: *look at me* *sighs* no, we're sorry.. we already donated yesterday.
SM: oh if tats the case, then would u like to help these children today?
YS: *gulps* im sorry sir, we're just students.. we cant afford.. im sorry.
SM: its okay. have a nice day
YS: eh, ytd donated, today wan donate again.. my dad give me 30 bucks per week.. if everyday help these children, im gonna be spastic soon..

The third time

XX: eh, the guy coming for donation..
YS: *angry* i'll ask him to GTFO this time i dont care. I WILL!!!!
SM:'' good day sir! im sorry to interupt you, can i have some time pls?''
YS: uh..err...hmmm...yeah sure..
XX: *thinking to self* wth? u asking him GTFO or GTFI(get the F in)?
SM: dsadsadsad... as u can see, we need 12 mil per year to help this spastic children.. so would u kindly donate just a small amount of rm10 to help this children?
YS: i wish i could help these poor lil children but maybe not today.. im so sorry
SM: its ok.. dsadsadjadwadwad! see you!
XX: fail la you...

The fourth time

YS: crap, SM alert SM alert
SM: excuse me, can i have some time pls...as u can see, im from spas...
XX: *look at me again*
YS: ....
XX: spastic children right? the one in petaling right? we're not interested..

And up until today, i still fail at calling them off.. i feel so bad for XX seriously.. sighhh..
Tell me, spastic or hectic?

2009-08-07T15:45:00.003+08:00

Keep rockin', and keep knockin'
Whether you Louis Vuitton it up or Reebokin'
You see the hate, that they're servin' on a platter
So what we gon' have, dessert or disaster?

Been a while since i last blogged eh? I didnt go to school today. Reasons? tired...stressed...and all those lame excuses. So decided to take 1 day break.. And guess wat? Yeah i had a good sleep but the thing is, im feeling more guilty than usual.

I never thought I'd be in love like this
When I look at you my mind goes on a trip
Then you came in, and knocked me on my face
Feels like in I'm a race
But I already won first place

Anyways, wanna know wat i did at home? I did some revision.. Physics past years obj question. Heheh. Oh btw, i know sayang didnt go school also. No i did not go out with sayang. Both of us stayed at home revising. We just need a day break =) xD. And also, this will be the first and last time im gonna mention my sayang here. Just to let u'll know, i dont really like blogging anything tat gotta do bout sayang. I'm a very private person. LOL! hahah. Hopefully sayang wont think negatively. And hopefully other visitors too. K lets move on...

I never thought I'd fall for you as hard as I did
(As hard as I did, yeah)
You got me thinkin' bout our life our house and kids, yeah
Every mornin' I look at you and smile
'Cause boy you came around and you knocked me down
Knocked me down

And oh! maybe u all were thinking why half way blog got lyrics lyrics all wan. Just to let u know, Im addicted to this song. hahah. I dono wats the meaning of this song, but i just like the music. When it comes to songs, i don really hear the lyrics. As long as i feel the music can carry me, it'll carry me. Who cares wat the hell the song means.. I happy can de. xD

Sometimes love comes around
(Love comes around love comes around)
And it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down
(Knocks you down)
Sometimes love comes around
(Love comes around)
And it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down
(Knocks you down)

Hmmm.. Wat to blog ar.. Ok! just thought of something. My mum just mentioned to me earlier. Have u guys watch the movie ''He's just not that into you?''. Whether u have watch or not, i'll just tell u wat i wanna tell.. So, while watching the movie, suddenly there's this scene bout a couple. This couple had been with each other for so long(7 or 8 years ar?), yet they didnt marry each other. The girl was like asking him why dont wanna marry and all? Then if im not mistaken, the guy said tat as long as they both know how they feel towards each other, marriage is not important. Ok, as a species who like to think alot, i had my say on this. But pls do not misunderstand me ya! Either sayang or others. Its just an opinion. Of cuz i would like to marry la. I feel tats the most i can do to make sayang feel secured.

K comeback to my opinion.. I was thinking.. Wat tat guy say is kinda true also but up to a point la. I mean, they've been living with each other for so so so long, shared the same bed, toilet, toothbrush, soap?, toilet paper, towel?, couch, plate, fork, spoon, chili sauce?, almost everything. They know each other very well. Every morning when they wake up, they'll go like ''good morning honey, yesterday night was soooo awesome!'' Something lidet rite? xD. Yeah i mean, the two of them has already act like a married couple , or maybe even more than wat married couple nowadays will do. U get wat i mean? I was just wondering, isnt tat enough for them? And besides, do u think marriage means DEFINITE SECURITY? I wont touch bout this, u see our world and figure it out urself. Im trying to deliver a msg saying tat marriage is not the key to definite security. Its our heart. U marry de, u still can do soemthing behind ur partner wat. Correct not? Its all bout loyalty, sincerity.

I'll do some comparison, and maybe by tat i can make u guys understand wat im trying to say.
Couple A: Married. Have 4 kids. But husband curang/ wife curang.
Couple B: Not married. Have 3 kids. Super loyal to each other.
Get wat i mean ar? Security is not brought by a subject. Its bout how two ppl comprehend with each other. If u dont get it, then just forget it and i'll admit i suck at explaining la k. heheh
But again, lemme stress it again tat i do wanna marry k! Doesnt mean i have this opinion means i dont wanna marry. Its just a free thinking right? heheh *peace*

In the end, tat guy proposed to the girl. It was very sweet. I cried secretly tat time. It was too touching i cant help it. Damnit...

I never thought I'd, hear myself say, ooh, ya'll gon' head
I think I'm gonna kick it wit my girl today, kick it wit my girl today
I used to be commander and chief
Of my pimp ship flyin' high, flyin' high)
Til I met this pretty little missile that shot me out the sky
(Oh shot me out the sky)

Hey, now I'm crashing, don't know how it happened
But I know it feels so damn good
Said if I could back, and make it happen faster
Don't you know I would baby if I could
Miss Independent, ohh, to the fullest, the load never too much
She helpin' me pull it
She shot the bullet that ended that life
I swear to you the pimp in me just died tonight
Girl sometimes love...

Oh oh! this is my fav part. Ne-yo is so damn good.
So this is wat happen to me. This section of the lyrics, i feel it got connection with me. I used to prioritise on my frens a lot. Till i met sayang, i cant believe how i'm treating my frens now. Its exactly: i never thought i'll hear myself say, you'll go ahead, i think im gonna go wet with my sayang today.. No more dota till early morning with my gay frens.. No more this no more tat.. Well, sayang, dun misunderstand k. I choose it tat way. I never once blame it on you. Cuz to be honest, it'll all my fault. I can balance up everything, but i choose to weight it more on you. Yet, i know my frens will understand. xD. Sorry guys..

Gosh, i write alot de.. Rest a while ya.. cont next time..

2009-06-27T17:42:00.003+08:00

Is tat the best way to deal with anger?
Lost of rational thinking..
Say hurtful words..
And the best thing is, didnt even apologize?
As if there's all rights and no faults at all?
Sighhh..
If i say u dun understand, im wrong.
I admit i choose not to go school. But i also had no alternative choice..
I think its really my fault..
Sorry teacher..
I will learn from my mistake.
At least to be a successful person.

U know, sometimes i just really wish to stuck my middle finger to the world..
Then, think back, the world wont even terasa. Who am i? Just a small potato...
Guess i'll revenge by enjoying the world to the fullest...
Its time to be myself again..
Just STFU and do my work.

2009-06-25T22:00:00.002+08:00

Report Card? or Regret Card?

K, so my parents wont be taking my report card for me.
Firstly, my parents... they're different.. really different ok?
My dad, i dun think he give a damn on wat teachers have to say about us. If he were to take report card for us, it would be bcuz he's OVER FORCED. By us.. And even if he's there with the teacher, wat he have in his mind is hoping tat the teacher faster stop talking and just give the damn report card. Yes this is true and i know him well. He's my dad.

And my mum.. She's just plain lazy. She always dun want to take our report card. Regarding wat teacher's have to say about us, she's also not interested. She care bout us, she care bout our studies, she care how well do, but she just dont care bout report card day. Few days back, my bro just asked my mum to take his report card. U see, if i were to ask my mum to take for me and she dont wan, the reason is simple. I got a bad mark and she'll lose her face. But my bro, he's different. He's plain smart, hardworking. Im sure his class teacher will praise him well. If my mum were to take for him, im sure she'll feel hell proud. But? She dont want! Cuz she lazy.. she admit to us. Tats my mum for u!

So ppl, dont try thinking tat my parents wont come to take report card cuz we didnt inform our parents bout it or we're scared we'll get screwed up. We'll never get screwed up. Not from my mum and lagi not from my dad. Dun ask me why.. i wanna know why too.. Cuz im taking things for granted tat way. Its like i purposely did badly cuz i know my parents wouldnt care for my results.. Its no ok.. Its no like tat.. its just...........................

Here's my confession.
Im just plain lazy. This i admit. And i realize tat i wont change. I wont be hardworking i know. But i also know tat i'll be less lazy. I'll still be lazy but lessen due to guilt. I have a heart, i have a mind, and i have a soul. I can feel guilt and wrong. But the thing is, im not determined to change. Cuz i like taking things for granted. Tats just me. I know im wrong in this sense. I realized.. But, seems like im not afraid enough to change. Looks like im those stubborn type. And the only last resort to change me entirely is to give a heavy punishment tat i'll regret for life. I hate it tat way. I dont wanna be like tat. I wanna change entirely when i feel its wrong. I wanna change.. But... Im just not determined. I have a weak mindset on this.

Mum and dad, im really sorry i did badly in all the exam. My biggest confession is tat im super lazy. I wont give excuses. I admit im lazy and a weak student. I dont hope for anything, but just forgive me for not doing well in exam. Tat will do. Dont pressure me.. Dun scold me cuz i know tat wont help me. Dont advice me. Dont say anything bout it. Just keep trusting me, keep giving me hope. Cuz i believe tats the best way. If u entrust me with something, then i guess i'll really do something bout it cuz i know im ego. I dun like to betray a trust.

2009-06-16T20:28:00.002+08:00

1-2-3-4

U know pitbull? The guy with addictive songs. Man, i hate his songs. Everytime his song plays on the radio, i was like.. wat the toot is this song? the toot he singing? But the thing is, the song stuck inside my head everytime. And wats the latest song tat stuck in my mind?
Wanna know???
Wanna knowwwww???
Sure wanna know??????????????????
ITS......

one-two-three-four
Uno-do'-tres-cuatro

Chorus
I know you want me (want me)
you know I want cha (want cha)
I know you want me
you know I want cha (want cha)
I know you want me (want me)
you know I want cha (want cha)
I know you want me
You know I want cha (want cha)
one-two-three-four
Uno-do'-tres-cuatro

yeah its pitbull-I know u want me

DAMN! stuck in my head gila gila wei.. especially the part where he says
one-two-three-four
uno-do'-tres-cuatro

so hot..damn..

-1-2-3-4
uno-do-tres-cuatro

2009-06-14T03:07:00.003+08:00

I hate this part right here.
The part where i had to accept the fact tat school holiday is gonna over.
The part where im lazying around on holiday..
The part where i said i'll finish up my work and never do last min homework..
The part where i'll be tired after going out whole day..
The part where i'll sleep so early after work and wake up in the midnight thinking nonsense..
What i hate the most...
Is the part...
Where i had to accept the fact.
Cuz the truth hurts.. But lies, hurt even more.
And do u wanna know wats so hurtful?
Yeah, it is tat my smooth hand, is no longer smooth.
Cuz i fly too much on air.
Its very hurting to see it.. with some skin coming off in certain area.. hardened skin at my finger..
Sighhh...

2009-05-20T02:12:00.003+08:00

M.Y.E

There it goes.. our mid year exam. Chem 1 and 2 will be the opening ceremony. There's been so much stress lately. Im just so lazyyyy. Guess wat? I did study wan k! Just tat at times i dono wat the jai-ho am i studying only. Seriously feel like passing out tomoro. To all upper 6-ers, good luck and all the best in ur exam. Remember! Its just 1 week and u can enjoy already. Have no regrets taking the exam.

And pls ar.. to some jai-ho-ers, pls dun discuss back the paper after exam can or not? Its freaking annoying and disturbing. Especially when u sigh about the mistake tat u've done. Wat done is done. Wat can u get by banging table, hitting ur head, pulling ur face, scolding, grumbling about ur mistakes? U can get back the mark zit? U think teacher can give u some mark for regretting? Fail means fail. Mistakes means mistakes. Just take it, and go. Dont, for jai-ho sake, dont complain about ur mistake. I know u're smart. Have some respect for stupid ppl like me. Just be cool bout it. Take it as u donate some mark away so ppl like me can feel smarter abit. U got it jai-ho-ers?

All the best and good luck again!

2009-04-25T20:50:00.003+08:00

Fairytale gone wrong

Honestly, i tot life's like a fairytale. No matter wat we do, we'll shine in the end. I started it with SPM, i admit tat i really did not put much effort on SPM. Cuz i tot life's a fairytale. I just got a feeling, no matter wat i do, i'll shine in the end. And when the results come out, i see no light. It didnt shine at all. So i tot, oh okay, tats just the beginning of my tale.

And then, volleyball story. When i was form 5, i strongly felt tat we'll enter final for sure. Cuz its our last year. This time, its the end of the tale, and in the end of every tale, things will turn good. Guess wat? We got 3rd for it. Its a shittytale.

Then i go decided to move on form 6. Studies, its still the same. End year exam, i got crap marks for evrything. Wat kind of tale im going thru? And then im elected as the ketua rumah sukan. So i see tat im starting to shine. Honestly i tot this was the best fairytale ever. I know it'll be a fairytale, i just know it will be. And best of all, im following the storyline beautifully. I got gold for all events and no doubt, i'll get the tittle i've been wanting for so badly long long time ago. Once again, it never happen. It was only a tale at the beginning.

Worst of all, the recent volleyball game. Seriously this time i tot it'll be a freaking FAIRYTALE for sure. Conclusion? Fairytale doesnt exist. U might think tat at the beginning u'll fall and get up slowly, in the end, u'll shine brightly. Just to let u know, if u think tat way, u'll shine too bright tat u'll blind urself and all u see is darkness. We didnt even enter semi final. We blinded ourself in quarter final.

Remember ppl.. fairytale doesnt exist. No story will end beautifully in the end. No! This is the reality, u wan it to shine, u work for it. U dont just work for it, u gotta really try ur best. No tats not enuff, cuz i really tried my best yet i fail. See how hard it is to achieve a good story?

Its a fairytale gone wrong...

i just cant get over it.. im really disappointed.. i want it tat badly.. i knew im gonna get it.. i just know.. its so close, yet so far away. its really awful. If i tell u im okay, i told the biggest lie ever. cuz its never gonna be okay. i just cant accept the fact. i had enuff disappointment.. i had enuff sadness.. i had enough

2009-04-17T21:50:00.003+08:00

It's all right. I'll learn to cope with it. For both reasons.

2009-04-16T19:53:00.002+08:00

BoOm bOoM POW!!

gotta get get
gotta get get
gotta get get
gotta g-g-g-get-get-get, get-get

Tomoro...tomoro..and tomoro..
tomoro's sports day ppl!!
Pls come ppl PLS COME!!!
Come and see red house win!! WOOHOOOO!!!!
nola, come and see me run! support me!! i need something to cool me down..
Honestly, im feeling very hyped.. im thinking shits rite now. im very luan.
Why? WHY?! I tot i'm strong. Actually, im very weak and fragile.
Last time i used to stay calm for anything, but nowadays.. even just a small event make my heart beats.
-before sleep, my heart beat fast
-when i wake up, my heart beat fast
-when i step in school, my heart beat fast
-when i enter class, my heart beat fast
-when teachers teaching, my heart stop beating(sleeping)
-when school finish, my heart beats
-when i saw 'her' my heart BEATS, beats like BOOM BOOM POW!!
-when i sit for test, my heart beats. (u know, i never got scared of test, its a crap, but now.. im treating it like pure diamond. IM JUST...BOOM BOOM BOOM!)

And the 2nd and 3rd reason tat make my heart goes boom boom pow:
-tomoro's final event 100m, whether red house can win or not
-volleyball's tournament on next week.

cut the crap.
Im so boom boom boom right now.

2009-04-07T15:57:00.002+08:00

Two Step Closer

I've been missing for some time i know. Any1 miss me? Tak de kot.. aisehhhh..
Life is stil great! Im still fine, still tat lame still tat sarcastic.
And the best thing is, i finally can drive freely xD. wah seh.. But the sad thing is, i dono y i feel the oil finish very fast. Auto punya pasal. Lousy la =.=''
Mid year exam is coming. As usual, im not prepared at all. Yes im very scared, ma balls are shaking here, vibrating vigorously.
Bringing you guys here some updates!
-200m gold (26.22s)
-high jump gold (1.62m)
-4x100 gold
-100m saringan 1st placing (11.88s)
-100m final (pending.. its on the 17th)
-4x400(pending)

Im excited! Hope i can get the tittle i've been longing for quite long ago.

Will keep updating(i hope)

2009-03-28T16:42:00.002+08:00

What melts in your mouth but not in your hand?

What melts in your hand but not in your mouth?

What melts both in your mouth and hand?

What wont melts both in your mouth and hand?

2009-03-01T18:05:00.002+08:00

Do u know wat i feel like doing now?

Something which no one can do..

something tat, only i can do...

and tat something is

nothing..........

Im just spamming!

2009-02-25T17:57:00.002+08:00

He said he dare to say, he dare to do
I said, he dare to do, i dare to follow

This is wat happen. U see, He, came to school complaining hungry. And he even begged for food from guys and girls. See how hungry he is? Then he got fed up and decided to had bah kut teh. He ajak-ed few ppl but looks like all dare to say, dun dare to do. And they also tot we dare to say only, but dont dare to do. Wat happen was, we really went to bah kut teh during school. It was the 3rd and 4th period. And i'll tell u wat, together, both of us eat like we'd never eat before in our life. Everything is so clean!

See, we dare to say, we dare to do! Dont dare us! xD

He- Wei loong.
I- I la.. >.>

2009-02-24T20:22:00.003+08:00

BALLS FOR LIFE
*note* extreme coarse word ahead. proceed with precaution. Im burning when im typing this.

There's 1 thing i really cant stand.
I know guys are the cause for every bad things.
But not all guys are the same. The only thing tat is same about them is tat they had balls and penis.
Not to mention tat some of them are just having them for accessories. For god sake u dun go around having balls but not being proud of it. Then u might as well pluck it out and put it in a frame or refrigerator.
Just bcuz a balless guy did soemthing bad, the innocent ballers suffers.
Not all balls are the same. And dun get fucked up with me when i say soemthing not nice to protect my balls.
You can go around fucking a ball in front of others, y cant i go fucking around and stand for my balls? the best thing, its a pussy who's doing the fucking. Damn u coward penises.
when i start using the word 'fuck' it means im really pissed.

Im telling, im standing for guys. Cuz im proud to be a guy. There's a reason y i had balls and penis. The balls to stand for wats right, and the penis to protect my stand. I'll rather be hated for who i am than loved for who i am not.

ps: im a guy, and im proud to be a guy.

2009-02-22T21:18:00.002+08:00

The good news is i'll have my license
The bad news is i got a feeling my mom will find 1000000 excuses not to let me drive.

The good news is i'll have a car to drive
The bad news is its a fucking auto(im not over it yet. im a scorpio.)

You see, the problem of having an overcaring mom is tat, she'll love u too much. So much tat she'll think of the worse condition and will not let u drive. I've already had a plan in my mind. If she give me 10000000 excuses not to let me drive, i'll fucking burn the P license in front of her. ='). When i say i will, i will. Don doubt me mom, dun doubt me. U should know the best. If not, i wont be taking driving lesson only at this time.

Anyways, shit you auto! (auto drivers pls dun get offended. this is only between me and the stupid pussy corolla tat i had)

2009-02-18T20:46:00.002+08:00

THERE SHOULD BE NO REASON WHY FORTUNATE PPL LIKE US SHOULD FAIL.

I'm gonna say it once and it'll be the last time im saying it.
I'm not gonna fail in studies anymore. I know my capabilities and i know i'll continue to fail. Wat i mean by im not gonna fail in studies anymore is tat aldo i'll fail, i'll get better marks than the last time. I promise i'll give my best from now onwards. I thank god for not being born out SMART bcuz tat way i wont take things for TOO GRANTED aldo i've already take some things for granted. Granted or not granted, u decide urself.

I got the tittle from an unfortunate ppl, and it was thanks to tat unfortunate ppl tat i've decided to quit being SMART. Life is great bcuz nothing is perfect. Even the unfortunate ppl can make others feel fortunate. While the fortunate ppl are taking things for so damn granted and making others feel so unfortunate. Fortunate or unfortunate, u decide urself.

So dont feel so bad for being not smart, bcuz it was the existence of smart ppl tat made others feel not smart. Be fortunate for being not smart bcuz it was u guys who let others feel smart. Live life by making others feels great bcuz it was the existence of the others tat made ur life great. True or not true, u decide urself. :')

2009-02-12T21:17:00.008+08:00

FOR EVERY MINUTE YOU ARE ANGRY, YOU LOSE SIXTY SECONDS OF HAPPINESS

WHY NOT BE HAPPY AND SMILE :)

seems familiar heh? sorry yunn teng. borrow a while ya..

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2009-02-12T18:08:00.021+08:00

:)

;D

2009-02-12T18:08:00.020+08:00

:)

=D

2009-02-12T18:08:00.019+08:00

:)

xD

2009-02-12T18:08:00.001+08:00

:)

:D

2009-02-12T18:07:00.000+08:00

:)

:D

2009-02-12T18:02:00.002+08:00

:)

:D

2009-02-07T21:48:00.002+08:00

Recovered

YES! there is no more radioactive substances inside of me anymore. Gone thru all the half-life till no-life de. The feeling of being able to walk up straight and jump and shuffle, wah seh! damn nice wei.. but... but.. life's damn boring tat way. Staying at home and lying on my bed 24/7 is totally torturing. So tomoro i planned to go Aeon and stay at Popular to get some fresh air! Got a few books to buy and also a sports shoe. Oh yeah, im gonna catch up on Red Cliff 2 as well. Been waiting for it for quite some time. I bet its gonna be awesome. But wats un-awesome is tat maybe i gotta watch it alone =(. Its okay YS.

Anyways, happy advanced thaipusam ppl!

2009-02-06T05:10:00.002+08:00

Absent

Yesterday , thursday 5/2/09 was the 1st time i absent for school after entering upper 6. I planned to have perfect attendance, bcuz i know if i absent 1 time, there'll be 2nd and 3rd time. Woke up around 5 in the morning, straight rush to toilet to dispose some radioactive substances. I thought it was okay already so i went to school. On the way, it hurts again.. Im caught in between going back and going school cuz i wanna have perfect attendance, but at the same time i know i wont be able to dispose those radioactive substances at school. At last i give up la, went back to dispose. And just when i thought it was the ending , its actually the beginning. Tat is when i go in and go out from the toilet for more than 10 times. From 5am to 8pm. My S hurts real bad tat i dun think i can afford to dispose anymore. Tremble in fear, cold sweat and shivers.

Its 5 am too now. And my stomach is filled with radioactive gases. It hurts again..

2009-01-24T11:56:00.002+08:00

I find getting 1st place in cross country has NO meaning at all..
Heard ppl saying tat getting no.1 in form 6 is crap cuz the number of participants is like crap.
The problem is, even with tat less number of participants, u can get 1st or not? U have the endurance or not? Do u have the mentality to endure ur extreme tiredness? Getting 1st truly has no meaning. Those placings are just numbers tat causes human to be different from others. We're all equivalent. But completing the race and overcoming ur mental is wat tat really counts. I know its torturing, as i went thru it also. So i hereby congrats those who completes the race, even if u had no placings, didnt reach in time, used shortcut and stuffs. At least u took the opportunity to try and complete the race. Never give up!

Before cross country started, i went thru lots of stress. Tat includes preparing a complete namelist, prepare the numbers, find the red house members tat are missing in the namelist and stuffs like tat. I admit i had not been sleeping well cuz of this stress. And also, pressure from teachers and frens who wants me to win the race. Felt so guilty to certain teacher cuz i used their period to do my things. And also sorry for abandoning u. Hope they know im really busy with my things and i know i act very selfishly. Anyways, i would like to thank a few idiots who are willing to lend a helping hand. Those includes Childish Chicken aka Soon Chia,Jerry, Pravind, who helped me do the numbering and distribute them. I would also like to thank to the secretary , Alexis, who helped me to get the namelist done. Without u ppl, i think i wont manage it this far.

Anyways, am happy tat red house is the top for now. And its unfair to congratulate me alone bcuz the fact tat we made it this far is bcuz of the members of the red hse and not the president alone. Thank you merah-ers!! I'll keep my promise to bring red hse to be the champion . Give me all ur cooperation and i'll give everything i've got. merah ehh merahh, eehhhhhhh merahhh.

2009-01-18T10:43:00.003+08:00

Sunday

Phewww, finally i get to rest.
Anyways, things are different now...I noticed how much i've changed. Im no longer the YS u'll know. Give me some time la ya. I'll switch back to myself after i settle some of my internal conflict.
Mainly its caused by ego and stuff like tat. Im really sorry to my close frens. Just give me some time okay. I dun blame u guys, im the one to blame and i know it myself.

Btw, im stopping tuition a while until my driving lesson is complete. Really fed up of saying ''i got tuition la'' to my mom everytime she ask to take my lesson. So lets just screw tuition, settle driving thingy, then screw back the driving thingy and get back to tuition.

Say, i wonder when will i recover completely. I mean my muscle ache and stuff like tat. Today ache, tomoro stress it again. Then ache again then stress it again. Wat i wan la? Lets just rest completely.

I need a break, i need a kit-kat.

2009-01-11T06:45:00.002+08:00

WOW! Im the president of rumah merah. As u'll know, a president post is never suitable for me. Y? cuz im an introvert and an introvert are not meant to lead ppl. We, the introverters, are meant to listen to ppl, cuz we, the introverters, feel much more secure or happy tat way. I always wanna give up my post to much more deserving ppl. As a president, he needs to be able to boost up the team spirit. I cant even give a spiritual speech, wat i did was giving a funny and crap speeches. Then i start thinking as usual. Before i enter lower 6, i said to myself tat im gonna enjoy this last 1 and a half year of mine. Im not gonna regret my schooling life when i leave school. And i have a dream of becoming olahragawan. I know the teachers give more priority to form 6 students. I dare not say tat there are no other sportsman in form 6. I believe there's always a challenger. I guess some of the teachers or members are doubting me, but wats more important is i dun doubt myself. I have close and good frens to support my back, there's no need to worry.

And if u realise, i have changed. And i think its because of the *cough* factor. Even my mom screwed me. She felt so angry bcuz i no longer play computer games . Shouldnt she be happy tat way? As u'll know, i always argue with my mom but in a jokingly manner. And she always like to scold me for playing too much computer games. The reason she felt angry is bcuz she dont get to scold me for playing computer games anymore cuz i no longer plays. She's different and tats bcuz she's my mom. Dont worry mom, i still love you. U should realise it when u look into my eyes.

dreams for now
-to able to hold the title of olahragawan
-to be able to be a good leader
-to be able to balance the weightage of frens and personal life

2009-01-06T19:11:00.002+08:00

Helloooo!

Since im free today, i'll update a bit.

Hmmm, lets see...
How's school?
- School? okay la.. I tot i gonna kena from school teacher when school reopens cuz never did homework. See see, im kinda safe now.. But i doubt la..
Anyways, we were shifted into a very small class.. I cant really walk around anymore.. U know, i seriously miss my old class la.. Lotsa memories there =(..
And we got a new Kepala Besar! She's a girl! I mean of cuz she is a girl la, wat i mean is we got a girl Kepala Besar. Dude, everyday we gotta wear tie during the assembly.. And for teachers, they gotta wear blazer for official assembly. The blazereres(ppl who wear blazer) were really cool. I seriously hope all the form 6ers are allowed to wear blazers. They're effin awesome!!

Oh yeah.. Im really sorry for playing /kutuking/fooling with ppl. I dont wanna do it anymore la. Altho im just trying to be funny, but up to a certain extend la. I think i've crossed the limits lots of time but ppl just bare with me. I dun like hurting ppl la. I rather not be funny than hurting ppl. Sorry ya ppl!

2009-01-01T21:49:00.002+08:00

Happy New Year!!

1/1/09 is the best day of my life!! Thanks to those who made it memorable and awesome.
Wont be able to blog often anymore cuz am busy with some other thing. See ya ppl!

2008-12-30T01:01:00.003+08:00

She's cute...

Love ya lots!
maybe less than her abit la xD

2008-12-27T20:56:00.003+08:00

Pilot Lim

This is a post for a bro who is going to pursuit his dream. On the 30th of dec he'll be leaving to Kota Bharu. We had a farewell gathering at TGIF(i lost 2 tooth)
He's a pic of us
And sorry, but i wont write an emo msg to u. Emo msg are meant for ppl who'll be away and wont see each other for long. Im sure u'll always come back rite? And also, this is to force and make u remember us. And just bcuz u're Pilot Lim doesnt mean u can fong fei kei us ok? no exceptions! Have a safe journey bro!

2008-12-26T01:19:00.002+08:00

MCB!

Chill, its Merry Belated Christmas..
Anyways, nothing so special about my xmas..
Its the same every year, except this year i got a present from a fren..
And tat present totally resembles me..
Its dark, its 'cha kor', its me..
The only thing tat differentiate btwn us is tat he can stand on 1 feet, but i cant..
So i guess the real meaning of the present is to ask me to stand on my own feet..
My aim for now is to beat that STPM..
But 1st i have to overcome my super lazyness. Its just a few weeks for school to reopen and i still havent done my homework. Now tats scary!!

I seriously dont know how ppl can live with so much of tuition, so much of activity, so much of homework and yet so less of relaxing hours. For example, Hau Wei, he's good in sports, good in studies, attend lots of tuition classes, sumore have to handle club activities.. a prefect sumore.. Yet can excel with beautiful colours.. He's god? no, he's just a being like us.. I seriously salute u bro!! U got wat u deserve, and congrats for making it so far..

Anyways, i cant imagine myself dressed up in a formal attire, giving instructions to ppl, receive the title IR(some tittle for pro engineers). Living in a big house, riding a superbike, or even a luxurious car, it's just not me u know.. Worst of all, i cant imagine myself being so serious, being so straight.. Im a joker, Im lame and Im YS. Being so formal, is just not me at all. I wonder if i'll end up taking over my dad's business? Selling deads and gods thing.. U know wat am i really afraid of ? Im afraid if ppl were to ask me ''Why do you want to become an engineer?'' I seriously dont know wat to answer..

Wat im really interested is to study the space, the existence of all existence. U dun go racist and tell me tat the universe is just a bullshit, i'll fuck u up for sure. Wat u see is the real deal. Do u know wat it feels like to lay down on the beach at night and look up high in the sky, watching all size of stars with different brightness, different formation? If ppl were to ask me have i experience heaven, i'll say yes bcuz tat night is 1 whole of a heaven.. Life is seriously beautiful.. Thank god i went to langkawi, thank god i stay at a hotel near a beach and thank god i didnt kena PAO.

YS u promised to study constantly starting december but u never did, now can u promise me to really study when the school reopens?

2008-12-20T01:28:00.002+08:00

Damn...

Wanna know wat i've packed for Langkawi? Bunch of surf pants. Bunch of Surf shirts. Toothbrush(toothpaste just ask from any1), and tats all. Just clothing. No other thing. And 400 bucks of cuz. Previously, i was thinking how to get money for langkawi. Cuz normally my mom just give me 30-50 bucks everytime i went out. And now, she gave me 400. Now i'll have to think on how to spend it. Semangat gila pack everything and i got the wrong infomation. I thought it was friday night, but actually, it was saturday. Im not very excited also, how come i can hear wrongly?
Anyways, thanks to tat, i dun need to do packing anymore. And besides, i can add more if i want.
Damn....

2008-12-19T11:20:00.003+08:00

MIA

The 3 retards which is me, aaron and wei loong will be mia . We'll be going to the cursed island, Langkawi. Our mission is to study the death of Mahsuri and to discover some truth for our PA. Teachers will be following us so that they can give us an extra class during our free time. Its form 6, we dun have much choice. Consistent revision is wat we need. So i cant say ''we'll be enjoying ourselves there.'' I will not be bringing my phone cuz i dont want ppl to disturb me. I mean disturb me studying la. When will we be back? Tat depends... If we feel like come back, we'll come back. Dowan come back ma stay there lo.. If its nice there, then maybe i'll consider changing to the school there, SMK Methodist Pulau Langkawi. See la see how 1st..

2008-12-17T18:47:00.002+08:00

My pc is back!!
I swear i gonna Dota, Youtube, Redtube, read manga like mad.
I swear i gonna take care of it properly.. Costs 180 to repair tat crap.. daaammmnnnnnnnnn~!
Anyways, back to gaming..
Welcome back dear pc.
Now, lets wait for tat damn AUTO to come back.
NYAHAHAHHAH!!!!

2008-12-14T09:19:00.002+08:00

My pc has been sent to hospital and will only be released on Monday.
So until Monday, i will have nothing to do.
No pc means no game.
No game means boring.
Boring means got nothing to do.
Got nothing to do means will try to have something to do.
Will try to have something to do means disturb ppl.
Disturb ppl means...?
Only those who've experience it will understand. Sorry for ''accompanying'' u. Thanks to that now my phone got no credit. If i were lost or kidnapped by girls, then tats the end of it.
Even my parents feel weird. Y am i so free to talk to the dogs, y am i so free to follow them out, y am i so free to eat more, y am i so free to this, y am i so free to that.
In conclusion, pc affects my life alot.
And that ''pussy'' will return to home on monday as well.
I've lots of surprise for u dear ''P''.
Till AUTO do us apart.

2008-12-10T11:48:00.008+08:00

9 more days to Langkawi!
Not very excited, maybe cuz teachers will be there.
But its cheap! 200 bucks only wei. A real waste if I dont go.
So ima enjoy myself there. Speaking of enjoy myself... How i usually enjoy myself?
Hmm, lets see wat i can enjoy there
Shopping? Hell no.. Starts thinking how much will my mom give me. 30 bucks? perhaps..
Swimming? Hell no..I dono how to swim, let Aaron do his job.
See chiq? Hell no.. Wat to see there? Hen got la..
I think i'll only decide wat to do after i reach there.

Speaking of chiq, I had a conversation with my sis yesterday. I was surprised tat she would ask me bout my status and relationship thingy. Normally she dont care, but now she does care =). Ok ok, i'll share some of my relationship thingy here. Single and unavailable. Which means.. U know.. Im currently -wolfmode on. Its different. If u're single and available, then u're -fishing on.
She's not from my school. So whoever who guessed she's from the same school as i am, sorry =/.

I find this thingy complicated.. I mean for me. I have my own policy. Tat is any relationship at our age, is just puppy love. It wont last long. U dont have to prove it to me. I stick to wat i believe. But of cuz, only applies to 99% of all the relationship. To the other 1%, congrats. Sure, u can tell me ''hey buddy, i got a gf already.'' I'll ''congrats, mind intro-ing and stuffs''. I'll feel happy for u cuz ur hardwork paid off, at the same time feel sorry for u cuz i know 1 fine day, it'll come to an end. Sure u can tell me again'' Hey buddy, i lost a gf already.'' then i'll ''takziah and say some crap to make u feel crappier''.

Before tat, lets go on to how normal ppl get into relationship. Step 1: we gotta be close to each other, understand her, understand him and start letting the love grow. Step 2: decide whether they are suitable for u, meet ur expectation or beyond expectation and crap like that. Step 3: we'll start to look into her eyes, and say ''mandy, i love u''. Step 4: announce the news. But 80% of the ppl wont obey step 4. They prefer Step 4.2, which is let ppl tangkap.

Tats wat i learned after being single for 4 years. Unfortunately, im not tat romantic. Firstly, i do not obey step 1. The moment i understand a girl, and i found out she got a good quality, tats the end of it. Y? Bcuz of my policy. I rather be her fren than losing her after break up. Its hard to find a great fren tat u can be so close with. Especially if its opposite gender. I know i know, there's lots of question for me. So how only i'll couple up with the girl? I cant be close to her. I wont get to know whether she's good or not. How ar? How?! HOWWW!!!!! How Peng Ern, sorry, a fren's name.. Yeah so how?? I trust my judgement. Tats HOW exactly it is. Thank You.Im not complicated, its just tat im not simple.

Below is parental advisory post
Highlight to READ, dowan READ dun highlight. Read de STFU, dowan STFU dun read.

Btw, i learned driving today. From my dad. Its tough.. Engine keep dying whenever i stop. Luckily didnt jerk like horse. I cant play with manual car anymore cuz my MANUAL is officially AUTO tomoro. FUCK AUTO! FUCK YOU AUTO!!
For fuck sake i really fucking hate auto.IM FUCKING PISSED.
Here's a lil dedication to the damn manual car tat will be turning to auto. U know, u're like a guy turning into a pussy. Congfuckyoulation. FUCKIT

2008-12-07T21:31:00.002+08:00

Flashback 2

- There's this 1 time, after tuition, my fren fetched me home. Have u ever live in a shophouse? When ppl wanna buy things, they'll yell wateva names tat comes out of their mind. Like ''taukeh( for man)'' or ''taukeh-soh(for women)'' ''apek'' ''uncle'' ''aunt'' ''lou pan'' and stuffs la. This is experience talking. So when i reach home, i decided to play with my mom. So i goes ''taukeh-soh, i wan 2 oil. ''. USUALLY,my mom will recognize myvoice and she will play along with me. But NOT my DAD. No matter wat funny cracks i make, he'll never respond. Things dun get past his ears and words dun come out from his mouth. So, on tat day, my father goes ''wat colour u wan?'' Me and my mom was so surprised bcuz my dad knows how to play along! BUT WE WERE WRONG! HE TOT I WAS SOMEBODY ELSE!!!!! Have u ever felt your penis inverted? I had to sit down and pee for a month.

The bad news is, wat me and my mom tot was right. He is already too old to work. Eyesight gone bad, hearing gone bad. I know, bcuz he always drive me around. Especially at night. Its like a blind man driving. I felt so sorry for him. He's at the age of being grandfather, he's supposed to be taking care of my son and sit back and enjoy life. But tats just a fantasy. He's still working so hard when im blogging rite here.

Is this life is all about? I mean, does he really enjoy working so hard? From morning 6 to 1 at his shop and 1 to 9 at our shophouse. U know, i have never interacted with him since the day i was born. We were like strangers. I ask for money, he give without asking reason. There's no argument btwn us at all. He's so good tat it hurts. We need to talk dad, we need to.

- Today i had my 6 hour driving lesson, and the day i met funny funny types of ppl. So u see, our instructor asked some of us to do a demo. A real simple 1.
DEMO 1: Open the front bonnet
Situation: A guy was selected randomly. Tat guy, by seeing his face, u can predict he knows shit about cars. He went to the driver seat, start figuring out wat can he do. Wat do u do when u wanna give a turning signal. U'll move tat 'thing' up or down rite. So yeah he moved tat 'thing' and dude, i cant stop laughing. Then he move the viper 'thing'. Our instructor then gives a hint, he said wat do u do when u wanna open the back bonnet? The guys go OH! GIMME THE KEY GIMME THE KEY!! He took the damn key and went to the front bonnet tries to find the damn keyhole. Every1 was about to laugh till die. Seeing tat poor guy, the instructor gave up and showed him how to.

DEMO 2: Start the engine.
Situation: Seeing the 1st situation, the instructor gave up on picking ppl randomly for demo. So he took the key and move to the driver seat.

Instructor: Apa nak dibuat dengan kunci ni?
Guy: cucuk lubang kunci tu! (tat guy sits far behind so cant hear his voice)
Instructor: Jawablah, apa nak dibuat?
Guy: cucuk lubang kunci tu! cucuk lubang kunci tu (repeating and repeating)
Instructor: Cepatlah jawab, nak balik ke tak nak ni? (still cant hear tat guy voice)
Guy:CUCUK LUBANG KUNCI TU LA BODOH! ALAHAI!!
Instructor: Oh awak ni pandai sangat ye? Meh sini meh sini. Tolong tunjukkan.
Guy: *walks to the car and took the key. Sit at the driver seat. Put in the key*
Instructor: Boleh hidup? boleh hidup enjin tu? Dah cucuk kan? Takde apaper pun.
Guy: Belum pusing ma. Relax
Instructor: Pusing la, cepat.
Ok this part really make burst out loud.
Tat damn guy, hold the key for about 1 min, staring at the keyhole and finally decided to do something. HE FUCKING PRAYED BEFORE TURNING THE ENGINE ON!!
Guy: Bismillah ir-rahman ir-ramin.
Other guy: AMIN!
Dude, u should be there and get some laughter la.. I..I... I dono wat to say anymore..

2008-12-06T17:48:00.005+08:00

I

I...

I JUST......

I JUST WANNA LIVE...

and talk to her!!!!

2008-12-05T11:11:00.004+08:00

Flashback

- I love koko crunch. The box is in the cabinet, the milk in the refrigerator. Lemme tell u something, sometimes i eat until i goes high, tat i totally cant diffentiate which should go to the refrigerator and which should go to the cabinet. From this, maybe u'll conclude tat i put the box on the ref and the milk on the cabinet, which is wrong. Cuz i put the bowl on the ref, and leave the milk and box on the dining table. I didnt realize it until my mom told me. Am i high or soemthing?

-At times i really feel sorry for ppl around me. I love cracking lame jokes, the problem is, my limit is too high. I expect every1 to understand my jokes. There was this certain day which i went out with this guy. When im out with guy, i goes higher than usual. Especially with guys who're really white and a bit round(not very). In the car, i cant sit down quietly. I'll think and think and make fun of every imagination i have. After having much time imagining, i decided to share with tat guy. So i goes '' What if i call her(lets give her an initial A) and tell her : ''hey A, can u imagining me marrying u?'' and u know when guys talk together, we tend to be very dirty minded. so i goes '' can u imagining me f**king u?''. The problem is, i paused a while before i said tat, making it as if i was telling tat to that guy. And the poor guys goes pale, not to mention he is already pale, and constipated. He was like '' are u talking to me CUZ HOLY SHIT TATS A F**KING NOOO!!'' Dude im gay, but im not that gay okay. This is indeeed very wrong, very very wrong.

More to come next time

2008-12-02T00:58:00.004+08:00

Dec

December is here! Which means im on revising mode.Promise myself i'll start to revise ont he 1st of dec. Todays my first day and err, hmmm... i guess its fine la.. But tomoro i'll do better i promise. Not gonna procrastinate anymore. Will revise and revise and revise..

After tuition, i went home and sleep. Then i received this msg from my fren asking me to see the moon, its a smiley. And i was really sleepy at tat hour. So i tot, aiya, the moon always smile if it is not a full moon. So i cont sleep. And around 9 something i woke up. Amazingly i was holding my phone when i awake, so i see the screen and, yeah my fren msg la. Then, my brain starts to work correctly. Who would ask some1 to see a normal moon? So i think it must be some rare event. Quickly rush to the window to look for the moon, but i cant find. Went outside also cant find the moon. First time being so desperate. So, i google it..

As soon as i found out wat does the smiley means, i felt a real heartbreak. It's such a beautiful event and i missed it. If only i had a chance to see tat smiley, im sure i can boost myself up. Its like the sky is smiling at me, asking me to be happy, giving me confidence. It'll be another 5 years to see the smiley moon again. I wont miss it next time.
It was venus, jupiter and the crescent moon created the smiley.
Thanks Venus
Thanks Jupiter
Thanks Moon.

PROMISE ME U'LL SMILE THEN I'll SMILE.
:) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :)

2008-11-29T12:13:00.002+08:00

I
ponteng
tuition
today...
guilty as hell sia..
wakakkakaka!!!!
Lost some knowledge, gain some rest. DI mana ada lost, di situ ada gain la ya.
Btw, dec coming. Told myself tat i'll start doing revision during tat month.
All the best YS.

Random:
1.Haihh next week tuition on monday, tuesday, thursday and saturday.
2.There was this pelajar cemerlang ACS fella gave me a kind of expression when i told him im in Form 6 and i go for tuition. His expression gave me a thought like:
Im hot then im cold
Im yes then im no
Im in then im out
Im up then im down
Im wrong when its right
Its black and its white
I fight, i give up
I cant manage myself up
Seriously felt so.. insulted? hahahaha...
Pelajar cemerlang mmg pelajar cemerlang la ha...
YS name gonna be on board next year
kuang kuang kuang...

2008-11-27T10:38:00.004+08:00

Downdate

To all of u who're concern bout our shark brother, ah loong, he's doing fine already. Told ya not to worry bout him. Like i said, today he emo, tomoro he forget de wan. Went out yesterday and he was as high as usual. Wushu is a nice movie. Moral of the movie is dun challenge ur Sifu.

So after movie it was raining heavily. Since brother shark park his car outside, we all gotta run under the rain. COLD SIA!! my whole body got so wet and sexy . Wats worse is tat the parking ticket also got wet! So u know la, the machine wont accept the ticket. We're all panic inside the car.Brother shark figured something smart tat is using his air cond hoping to dry the ticket. So much for form 6 brain. Ok kidding.. kakakak

and so, we decided to sing rain rain go away song to.. okok, then brother shark's brother, brother brother shark, took an umbrella down and talked to the operator via the machine and we're free.. moral of the story is, no need buy ticket when raining, just tell the operator, the line is dead.

Conclusion we went to see movie and buy 1 ticket home.

____________________________________________________________________
Another random:

We went out to a mall, I asked, She agreed. Im surprised. She went to shop for her clothes, then she asked for my opinion. Been in a silence for too long, She just turned away and pick according to her own choice. I like her smile. Sweetest smile ever.
Note: Im not rdy to be a BF cuz i cant decide.

After that we had lunch. Ordered our own drinks, wats worse i kept quiet the whole session.
Note: Im not rdy to be a BF cuz i cant talk.

Then she drove me back to her house, my 1st time of cuz. Was surprised, her house's HUGE. Didnt saw her parents tho but inside, its like a palace. From tat point onwards, i give up taking care of her. I feel so weak.
Note: Im weak, y am i so weak? Cuz i lack... Confidence.

Note of all note: Its just a dream, but i guess it has no difference in reality. I know myself the best. Even if it really happens, i'll do the same thing. That's my worse night ever.

2008-11-25T08:24:00.004+08:00

Reply post

HAHAHAHAHAHA!! Well bro wat can i say? Every human has their own limit.
U know, i dun think its wrg u wanna challenge aaron lor.
Who doesnt? He's real good, i mean he's fast with evrything. A fast learner indeed. Dun think he'll sell his frenship just bcuz u wrote tat post. If some1 were to wrote tat post to me, i'll feel proud instead. Shows how good i am. Too bad its Aaron la.. hahahha! I bet aaron be laughing when he read the whole post.

U know wat, i guess we're in the quite same condition. I always wanna beat u in at least 1 subject. But i cant. The same problem, which is i never really tried. I told myself to study to win ah loong kor, but.. i was dota-ing instead to be better than jin kor.. Who doesnt wanna be better than another la? Depends on the type of ppl la actually.

1 more thing. I think its karma. I mean if i recall back, i did more mistakes than u did, but i never kena sound like u. Not only 1 time but everytime.. Must be u always sound ppl at school la? Maybe the reason y HW is so emo is bcuz of u! HAHAHA! I see u sound her like sounding dog u know? Dog also better la i tell u. (hor aaron hor?) jkjk! In school, u might be the head, but outside, hair also dun have. Physically fit!!

Warning to u, loong
-If u were to stay where u are, then im sure 1 day u'll be behind me
U might think i DotA everyday, but my chemistry is improving day by day.
I suggest u be more hardworking if u wanna catch up aaron. Or else, the post u wrote to aaron will be changed to me. PPl alde do the salt analysis table but u? correct not? DUn tell me u dun have free time lor. Aaron always fly out with his PAO wan. U need more ppl to kutuk u to change! SO now, i'll be kutuking u like fuck(actually kutuking myself also lar). Actually after reading ur post, i realized aaron is TAT good. sorry aaron! lol! physically fit!
I mean he's not like those nerd studying like crazy wan yet he can do well.
I understand the feeling la. Its like those idiots training like mad to catch up on jumping as high as me. They tot im born naturally,despite the fact tat i undergo harsh training when im small. I didnt mention bcuz i forgot or something. I dun believe tat there are gifted ppl outside. NO SUCH BULLCRAP! physically fit . Its just how they're being raised up.

So u wanna win aaron? win ur weaknesses 1st. such as laziness and stuffs like tat. And stop giving excuses to urself, eg: ' dec i'll start studying i swear''. Start studying now godamnit! u're being too lazy tat i can smell u behind of me. The moment u are behind of me means u're worse than .....errr...wateva tat is really worst la..

The end
actually its supposed to be much longer and much more ber-meaning. But some1 keep disturb me. Idea all ran out, lost focus.
Note: The next time im blogging, dun disturb. Its like im making love and the phone's ringing. Its damn true okay damnit!

ps: physically fit refers to the song '' i like to move it'' (madagascar)
ps2: will write another more meaningful post after tat female bugger is gone.

2008-11-18T19:27:00.003+08:00

Just to update post

1. Consume more food than usual (not pregnant or anything)
2. Prefers chipsmore more than chocs bar. Usually i prefer chocs bar.. damn!
3. Became less horny compared than usual (nothing is mulfunctioning dont worry!)
4. Finds shitting pleasuring.
5. Everytime when the shit wanna come out, i can feel my leg numb. I dont experience this last time.
6. Ivan's car sound damn chun (Slow but Furious)
7. WL become more noob in DotA ('' ah shut dap '')
8. Dont really sayang my small bro anymore.
9. Shuffle out of nowhere
10. Feels extremely guilty randomly
11. Feels more sleepy than usual
12. Must go toilet every 1 complete DotA match

2008-11-18T12:03:00.005+08:00

I feel like taking motor instead of car license..
Cuz i like superbikes.. (totally diff from mat rempit's bikes)
I always admire those superbikes riders on highway
Lol imagine YS as the person below.. damn......
But always insult them when they're taking a shade under bridge
I love skyline still!
How ar?
Dilemma dilemma..
Both are also cool

2008-11-10T21:58:00.008+08:00

Beremo-emo dulu, berbara-bara kemudian

At times, i really feel useless, hopeless,restless,balless and stuffless. Do ur mom ever refill ur wallet for u? U see, i always left my wallet on top of the table whenever i got back from somewhere. And the problem is i always come back with empty wallet. What's miracle is that the next day, its refilled. Not only once, but lots of time de. Why cant i stop spending? Why cant i think for my mom abit? How long can she refill? NO! The question is how long am i gonna stay irresponsible?

U know, beginning of every week, my dad always give me RM25 to spend a week(for school). Today is the beginning of a new week, and so i received RM25, and then i asked for another RM70 to pay tuition fees. Paid the tuition fees, and i got back home with empty wallet again. After completing my homework, i DotA a while and checked on my wallet and WTF its already refilled? And i need to get RM200 from her again for my trip. Dude, dont i ever felt heart pain?

Pics of my wallet refilled:

my mom sleeping after working so hard..and all i did is spending her hardwork like water.. tears also wanna come out de la
im sorry mom......

I promise i'll work harder to payback wateva debts i owe. I'll try to minimize as much expenditure as possible. I'll study really hard during the holiday break i promise. I know i cant do it alone, so bros, pls support me. Push me to study, scold me if i slack, diao me if im lazy. Im not gonna keep emo-ing the whole week. I'll smile as much as i can aldo my heart is really uncomfortable. Cuz i know, if im sad, i'll make my frens and parents unhappy. Be happy for them!! Like this:

2008-11-09T18:45:00.002+08:00

Legal

Being 18 is fun. Finally im legal la ya. Dun have to seludup into cinema de. Best thing is i can shuffle legally+ pang sim-ly with my bunch of crazy bros. So when we gonna go shuffle again la?We wait for brother loong la ok? *cough. And, im finally feeling well already. Finally the damn caffeine is out from my body. Thanks for being concerned.

K, nows the thanking part.
Thanks to:

-Brother-brother sekalian . Those are:
aS-WuYan
Chee Keat
GayJin
GayLoong
GayRen
GayYang
Han Jien (coolest bday wish award)(eh. happy birthday) short and simple!
Jeremy
Jon Jon
Mikey (fat de =X)
Seng Tiong(all the way from PJ, thank you very the much)
Shaun (bloody hell, can wish early dowan wish, end up wishing belated)
note: i tot i told u guys few years ago that i wanted a big big bday card? next year give okay!

-KPA ACS
As long as u're KPA ACS's member, i thank you! Sorry i cant list out all the members name.

-SSB
U know who u are.

-BF
*Alexis & Ying Fang
To alexis, thanks for the bday card. 1st time receiving bday card after 18 years of breathing. I believe u took some time to deco the card. I can see the effort wokeh! Thanks thanks thanks and thanks. Dun ever try to speak other languange than english! jk. Btw, i blush? lol.. cant believe i can blush. Im shy maybe, but im Love u too.
To yf, thanks for the present. Im so tempted to eat it but then.. tak sampai hati la.. ahhaha!! Sorry for disturbing early in the morning, i got bored waiting at modern. Btw, JJ and Rudy love digi cute ducks wokeh! Digi always the smarter choice.. *theme music Kuek!

*ALXT
*Blueberry
*DeadGeum
*Jamie
*Pei Ling
*Randy
*SY
*Xiau Huey

-LOWER 6 YAKIN STUDENTS
-VB team under 18 2008

Anonymous
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And thanks for the advanced bday surprise
i tried my best to follow the story, hope i did well

Thanks also for the H.Pup shirt. Kinda big for me tho. xD

I tried my best to remember all the names. If i forgot some of u, forgive me. Blame PA, chemistry, physics and maths. There's just too much formulae to remember.

2008-11-06T22:23:00.003+08:00

Wat happen?

My head feels heavy everytime i tried to stand up. Like a sudden blood rush to the brain.
My eye feels so pain, i see things blur, tat the best ease is to keep it shut.
My throat feels so dry. Excessive cough or too much chocolate?
My chest's aching. Push ups, push downs.
My back's aching every morning, even more ache if the weather is cold.
Feels like my whole body is running out of battery.
Dont like the taste of iron whenever i cough.
Caffeine or too much stress? Which is it?
Been catching up on too much PA, Chemistry tutorial, and DotA?
Or been breathing too much?

I need a break, i need a kit-kat.

2008-11-05T21:32:00.002+08:00

Tats the reason why im scared of knowing so much things.

2008-11-02T05:48:00.004+08:00

Something which i truly agree on

My gay bro, -[GayLoong]-, Ah loong, White Loong, Aneroxia Loong, Wei Loong , wrote bout something which i wanted to write loong loong time ago but bcuz dun have time and forgetful(old liau) i did not write bout it. If u wanna know wat it is, simply click HERE.

In my opinion, blogging is like no-rule-freedom of speech. We bloggers can talk freely bout something which is sometimes good sometimes bad. Anyways, wat my bro wrote here is something good. read it up.

ps: this is blog promoting
ps2: this is for ppl worse than my face
ps3: maybe we should set up rules for bloggers

2008-10-30T19:44:00.002+08:00

F and P.Off

I've been hearing much story and 1 thing tat i get really pissed off is about ppl getting judged by its cover. Just bcuz tat person smoke, u give them a black label. Just bcuz tat person swears or curse u think they're bad. Ppl judge me too. I receive lots of feedback from ppl saying that im bad bcuz of my look. I know i look yong suey, kiam pah face, cinabeng, criminal face, fuck face and stuffs but my heart is totally diff. Do u see me hurting ppl around? Do u see me raping ppl? Do u see me killing ppl? Do u see me do anything real bad? Tell me if u see me messing up with teachers in school. Tell me if u saw me enter the discipline room. Tell me if u heard teachers mentioning my name in school. Tell me. Ppl say when they dont know me, they think im bad. (mainly cuz of my face) But when they know me, they say im too funny to handle. I admit im a joker wanna-be.

Saya ni, kalo cakap dgn orang, tak pernah sekalipun tak buat lawak. Mesti buat lawak, mest buat diorang gelak. Pertama, sebab saya happy tengok kengkawan sekalian gelak. Saya ni mmg lame orangnya, tak dapat dinafikan.

Oh, ni ada salah faham sikit. Im just using myself as an example. I did not kena kutuk from ppl like dog. Im just standing for ppl who're kena kutuk like dog bcuz of face probs or bcuz they smoke or swears. Btw, i dun smoke, but i swears like a motherfucker. There i go.

Lemme share with u some of my history. Do u know tat im a real bastard when im in standard 5 to form 1 or 2? Who would ever whack his small bro just bcuz he himself is in a bad temper? Who would ever swears or curse back at their own mom when they fought with each other? Who would ever try to counter fight back their parents who beat them. Who would ever throw paint at some1 house just bcuz tat some1 pisses u off? And all of tat will be me. But tat was way long ago.

Karang ni, saya macam.. ntahlah.. kalo nak kata gay pun tak berapa gay sangat. Karang ni, saya paling sayang adik aku. Setiap hari tak pernah aku tak cium dia. Gambar dia pun ada kat dompet aku. Dah terlampau sayang tu. Tidur pun mesti make sure dia ada kat sisi aku kalo tak takleh lelap mata. Bayangkanlah, seorang budak cinabeng yg bermuka cam penjahat ada karakteristik penyayang macam ni. Korang sendiri fikirkanlah. Ada ke korang yg muka comel gila tu sayang gila kat adik korang sendiri? Ada ke korang ngan mulut tak pernah sumpah orang tu lawan ngan orang lain sebab orang tu sakiti adik ko? Ada ke?

Aku rasa kan, makluk yg paling jahat tulah yg paling baik. Sebab dia pernah buat jahat, dia pernah merasainya, dia ada keinginan untuk bertaubat. Ppl who never did wrong before, wouldnt know if they're really wrong. Firstly cuz they never do wrong things and secondly they cant differentiate between right and left or correct and wrong.

U can see me fuck freely in my classroom but do u know i planned to buy a really cute pink bag for myself to use at school?(my current bag is too small)
U can see me hitting ppl for some real good reason but do u know how guilty i feel, that the only resolution to this guilt is by committing suicide?
Worse of all, do u know how bad i feel when i try to approach a girl and tat girl looks so scared as if they're facing the worst thing in their life?

They say smoke can shorten a person life
I say judging ppl can take away a person life

Live life to the max and let others live theirs.

2008-10-29T19:19:00.003+08:00

Heartbreak Kid

Yesterday, after thinking so long, i decided to confess to the girl i like. I called her and told her everything. The best damn thing is, i got rejected on the spot and afterwards, i had to bear the pain and at the same time, trying to talk bout something else.

Do i look like im some1 who's already fallen in love? So here's the real story:

(eating koko crunch cereal)
(heard footsteps)
(turns around and see who is it)
Mom: koko crunch again? later be sure to eat wat i cook
YS : (noods)
Mom: Oh yeah, im changing the Toyota to auto transmission.

This moment are the moment where i felt exactly worse than heartbreak.
Oh yeah, my mom sent tat Toyota for maintainance. Changed quite a lot of things and cost alot.
Wonder if it'll be good as usual. Nvm, tomoro morning i'll ask my mom to tekan.
Back to the story, yeah so i guess from there, she got the idea of changing to auto transmission and tats a heartbreak for me.

I know i dont like tat Toyota very much but tats the only manual car in my house man! Ahh, i need a break.... Cuz im heartbreak

-breaking off
YS

2008-10-23T01:36:00.002+08:00

YES ARRR!! I FINALLY PASS 1 EXAM ARRR!!!

And that particular exam is PA. Pengajian Am, so sad no Pengajian Khas.
Paper 1 got 36/60 (nabeh, couldnt believe i throw 24 marks away)
Paper 2:
Bhg A - 7/25 ( dun ask me why, i just couldnt think of any isi for tat karangan)
Bhg B- 15/25 (Im satisfied with this mark, maximum my teacher will give is only 15.5)
Bhg C- 12/20 (no comment)
Bhg D- 12/15 (maximum my teacher will give is only 13)
Bhg E- -/15 (yeah i throw away this section, stupid bhg A make me lost all my time)

(36/60 x 32.5)+(46/100 x 66.5)= 53%

I PASS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I would like to thank my mom and dad for supporting me, thank my brother who helped me on asking me to study, thank my PA teacher for giving a great guidance , thank my frens for re-guiding me, and lastly, i would like to thank myself for trying so hard. Without this ppl, i will never pass my PA paper. So once again, thank you. *retreat 1 step back from the award table *kiss the paper *bow down *THANK YOU* AKU CINTA MALAYSIA!
Ni la pantun beberapa kerat sebagai penutup bicara.
Berakit-rakit ke hulu,
Berenang-renang ketepian,
Bersakit-sakit dahulu,
Berthank you-thank you kemudian.

2008-10-20T18:11:00.003+08:00

TGIM

Thank god its monday! Which means final's over!! WOOHOOO!! hoo my ass la. Final over means don need study de meh? Now, class lesson will resume as usual. After knowing how tough finals are, i guess i'll concentrate more in class. As day passes, i feel like im getting further and further from my dreams. Come on YS, snap out of ur wonderland. Time to get back to the real world! I know its hard, but i'll try to get no.1 in my class. I cant imagine wat will happen. As u know, im some DF( dumb F**k) in my class. Never pass any subject before. And 1 day, that DF climbed to the top of the class. HOLY SHIT! I seriously cant imagine that. For others, it feels like they're getting owned by a DF, which makes them dumber than DF! And for me, its like im being recognised as a SF (smart f**k). I cant wait till tat day. Its not impossible, all i need is triple the hardwork done by top student in my class. If tat person can do it, so can I!

And i cant wait till teachers start changing their perspective towards me. I messed up the chance this year, but next year onwards, i'll never let tat happen! Teachers in the office will start talking bout me, talking bout how ppl can change, taking me as an example for others, and stuff like that. Even teachers around klang town will recognize this DF. I like to shine at the end of the story, but i know as well, to shine tat bright, lots of hardwork is required.

So do u ppl wanna get beaten up by a DF? Do u wanna have all ur attention stealed away by a DF? Do u want tat DF to rule over u? If u don want, then i suggest u start studying hard from now on.

Note: This post is written to push myself and at the same time, push you ppl. If they can do it, so can u. They say to success, we must have a dreams. So goodnight ppl, im going to sleep now. (alasan nak tidur la tu, cheh-wah). Nights!

2008-10-12T23:06:00.002+08:00

Kepada member2 sekalianya, kini tibalah masanya untuk kita berjuang. Sungguhpun hanya ujian akhir tahun, namun ia masih penting kerana markahnya akan direkodkan dalam buku yg akan disain oleh ibu bapa kita. Tentunya anda tidak hendak ibu atau bapamu melihat buku anda berwarna warni. Tentunya juga anda tidak hendak membazirkan segala masa dan tenaga yg digunakan dalam tingkatan 6 bawah. Tunjukkanlah kepada guru-gurumu yg anda boleh menghadapi cabaran ini. Tunjukkanlah kepada rakan-rakanmu yg anda boleh menghadapi tingkatan 6. Nasihat kepada yg merasakan anda tidak akan membuat yg terbaik dalam ujian ini: janganlah anda mudah putus asa, masih ada tahun depan, masih ada peluang lagi. Di mana ada tahun depan, di situ ada peluang. Di mana ada tahun belakang, di situ takde peluang. Dengan itu, saya di sini dengan segala hormatnya mengucapkan selamat mencuba dan selamat maju jaya!

To member2 se-all-nya, now reachlah timenya for we ber-war. Although only exam final year, but its still important bcuz marknya will direcordkan inside book that will disign mother father we. Coursenya you dont want mother or father you see book you bercolour carli. Coursenya also you dont want memwaste all time and energy that di-use in form 6 lower. Showlah to teacher-teacher you that you can mengovercome challenge this. Showlah to fren-fren you that you can
mengovercome form 6. Advice to that me-feel-kan you not will mem-do that best in exam this: dontlah you easy break up, still got year front, still got chance more. In where got year front, in there got still chance. In where got year back, in there no got chance. With that, me in here with all respectnya meng-wish-kan safe men-try and safe develop jaya!

2008-10-09T21:30:00.003+08:00

Shake it

[Pre Chorus:]
Now if she does it like this will you do it like that (maybe?)
Now if she touches like this, will you touch her right back (hell! of course!)
Now if she moves like this, will you move it like that (come on)

[Chorus:]
Shake, Shake, Shake, Shake, uh shake it
Shake, Shake, Shake, Shake, uh shake it
Shake, Shake, Shake, Shake, uh shake it
Shake, Shake, Shake, Shake, uh shake it
Shake, Shake, Shake, Shake, uh shake it (come out de..come out de..)

Dun mind the above thingy.. just a random thing.. like the song shake it! shake , shake, sha-- okok..
FINAL EXAM'S NEXT WEEK!
wat can i say? im really... hmmm.. not to say not prepared , also not to say prepared..
anyways, i'll fight this war!
doesnt matter how bad i did, as long as i have the tendency to not give up
i can be succesful either!
i dun have to be the best,
i just have to give out all i have..

like i said, I'll give in, give out, and give down but i'll never give up!

2008-10-05T19:55:00.004+08:00

School's starting in approximately 12 hours from now..
So wat did i do during the hols?
here's a lil bout it
Saturday: feels so relieved.. i swear im not gonna come back home.. (and i really didnt come back home)
Sunday: Ahhh, its sunday. Got back home in the noon..And perintah berkurung berkuatkuasa
Monday: Nyahahah! no school! and we've got futsal! and tuition =.='' DAMN!
Tuesday: Do PA work. Do a lil maths and sleeps off
Wednesday: *thinking (hmm, still so long till monday, aiya! donit do homework la!)
Thursday: *open maths book(WTH IS THIS?)*close book, (aiya! still so long wat..relax la YS)
Friday: Went out, come back home(i need a break!)
Saturday: OH SHIT! OH SHIT!!! 2 more days!! OH CRAP!! Starts doing PA nilam
Sunday: OH GOD!! OH GOD!! PLS TURN BACK TIME!! OH GOD!! SAVEE MEEEE!! I SWEAR I WONT PROCRASTINATE!! GODDD!!!!

Conclusion? I wasted my holidays entirely.. and guess wat im thinking now? AIYA!, STILL GOT 2 MONTHS HOLIDAYS WAT!!
Question is, will i waste that 2 months?
Stay tuned!

2008-09-30T15:26:00.002+08:00

A lil'

Life can be seriously fun, if u're willing to get involve with evrything.
Few days back, went to play futsal with girls. Yeah girls.. Well, actually i dont believe it as well, but hmmm.. i was wrong. wokeh! Compared to futsal with guys, with girls, it's hella tiring.. Dun ask me why, experience it urself.
Its tired to chase after the ball
Its tired to look at the girls
Its tired to laugh at the girls
Its even more tired to laugh at the guys
And its really tired to feel tired
But nothing is more tired than getting kicked on the balls, especially by girls. Lemme rephrase it, innocent girl!
The pain is like.. mixture of pulling out ur bulu+ the shiver after u pee(or sometimes shit).. fantastic! allah-hu-akhbar..
Have sent them to repair, thank god its still functioning(fully!)fuhhh

Its tuesday and im still procrastinating.. huhuhuh~~

2008-09-24T22:23:00.006+08:00

________

I'm extrinsic motivated
-I study bcuz i have my own dream to pursue, that is i want to own a sports car. Ppl will tend to laugh at me if i told them that, but its the fact. Everytime when i feel like lazying around, i will remind myself.. ''YS u want that skyline? then study for it. just 5 years to spend and then u'll be in the working world already. At tat moment, u'll be thinking how nice if u can return to ur schooling life.''And that is y i wanna put all i have now to study and enjoy my schooling life. If i want something, i must work for it. Tat something wont just come to u if u dont go for it.

1 thing i hate about working is conflicts. I hate conflicts. I hate to hate , and to be hated. I seek for peace. But i know, in this world, there are lots of funny ppl. Some ppl think fooling others is fun, some think that it will show tat u acknwoledge tat person. I think its a waste of time. Some think for themselves only, some think for others only. I think for both. Some pursue power to be the strongest, some pursue power for their future. I pursue power to defend others. Even if it means to sacrifice something so important to me in order to settle a conflict, i will.

When it comes to friendship, im very serious. I'm a very ego person to start with, but with frens, im not. To me, hurting a friend is something i cannot accept. If i accidentaly hurt a fren, i will immediately talk a way out with tat fren. (my definition of friendship: ppl who i've gone thru ups and downs with. not those friend like in my classroom now. they are my frens but just social frens.) I respect my fren higher than i respect myself, even if it means to put away something to get back to them. But to social frens, its different la xP.

The Prison Break Guy
Btw, i dono y im so happy ppl call me '' The prison break guy''
To normal ppl, they'll feel like kena kutuk. To abnormal ppl, they'll kill the person who call them that. To paranormal ppl, they'll be happy. So am i happy bcuz i looks like criminal? Maybe i am. Then i guess i should be extra careful when going out. Police will question me for nothing, and even worse, kena whack for nothing. Face problem in other words. wakkakaka!
Watch out! I just broke out of prison!

To be honest, i respect criminals more than ppl around me. Criminals, at least know they're wrong and tend to change entirely. But ppl? Bcuz they dont know they're wrong, they'll become worse than criminals. True or not, ask urself by observing ppl around u.

2008-09-21T21:09:00.003+08:00

Phewww

Finish doing 4 exercises of maths 1 (2A-2D)
Finish copying maths 2 file work
Finish arrangin physics note
Finish cleaning up all subjects paper.. nothing but a big phewww!

Next up

Ima finish all maths 1 exercise 2
Ima finish do some of my maths 2 work which i havent touch at all(DAMN!!!!)
Ima do some chemistry tutorial which i got no idea at all
Lastly, ima PASS all subjects!

its 9.13 and im feeling so exhausted.. nights!

2008-09-15T21:56:00.002+08:00

Im just glad

glad that i've grown up
glad that i've become more serious towards something
glad that i've chosen form 6
glad that i've good friends
glad that i've involved in arguements
glad that i've settled my arguements
glad that i've done my homework(some =.='')
glad that i've a goal in my life now
glad that i've become who i am today

overall, im just glad!

I dont know what will i become if i had chosen college but all i have to say is, i've no regrets choosing the path i've chosen. Im so gonna enjoy every moment of this school life and have no regrets when i leave for Uni.

btw, Happy Birthday Brother Wu Yan.
Talk the talk
Walk the walk
Make sure u do ur job